海阔天空

i tried to type in chinese but after several attempts i gave up. it looked weird. ah whatever.


just want to say i love my life and everyone who is in it now. haha..


whatever unhappiness that came to me yesterday is gone like the wind. haha.. yay.

Cat and Mouse

Hi all..


it is a drastic change in tone but i guess that is normal? i'm currently pms-ing and i am unhappy. fuck.


that's all.

Happy V-day + 5/2 months

**Very romantic okay this entry! haha..i read through it and found it very ... haha...so BEWARE! if you're feeling tired of love and don't want to feel evil then just see the pictures. hahaha...**


my darling and i had our dinner at lemongrass and i thought i saw patrick tse aka nicholas tse dad. well it could be some random ah peh wearing happening see-through shirt and tied-up long hair AND huge ass sunglasses. who knows? all i know is he looks like him. haha..


some pictures:

See See See!!! the guy behind my dear boy! XIE XIAN! haha..

Dearest darling got jealous because the old man behind him got more of my attention then the food right in front of me. haha..just kidding la..the food was very yummy! :)

That old man is wearing a see-through shirt lor! happening right!

Look at the fabulous food. We ordered quite a lot.

You might not see it but it says "LOVE" :D
awwww....hehehe..

haha..kp says i only care about whether or not i look nice in the picture. haha..he doesn't look nice in this picture hor..haha! but i guess that's what i like about him la. he doesn't mind my nonsense. haha! he is right by the way.

There's actually a smiley face on my ice cream. but you can't see it la. haha..

Wanqi: " Got milk?"

Kp: "Why am i doing this?"

Well...kp and i have made it so far (about a total of half a year la..heh) without any major fights. A BIG feat i must say. Of course we got disagreements la but they are mostly settled quickly with both of us learning more about each other. I really like being with him. But. haha..The big B is still hanging around our heads la. Both of us feel the same way. Which is something i like too.


Another thing i like: he can stand my nonsensical self. hahahaha...he is the only one so far who will answer all my stupid questions patiently and just smile when my ego takes over. he even feeds it lor! so nice right. hahahahaha..no wonder i am so happy. hahahahaha...


BUT.


hahaha..he's not all mr perfect - of course...but i can live with his imperfect self.


because...I have no expectations what-so-ever about where this relationship will turn out, what he is really like or what i want him to be in the future. i have learned from the last r/s that expectations only lead to extreme disappointment + more quarreling = unhappiness.


yup...


kp is flying off in the afternoon later..now it is 330am. hmm..then it'll be another...3/2 months. haha..by the next time i see him, i'll be in beijing. so its an incentive for me to stay together with him. haha..otherwise wasted man! buy tickets then...you know la.


but things are going well..the past week has been fulfilling..i even met his family - his whole family. overwhelming man! but they are very very nice people. very warm. :) yay. good job. hahaha..


be safe darling! i love you! :)


hmm...i wonder if you even read my blog. haha...

pictures + randomness = randures-ness.

dearest sister and i. I love this picture. so SWEET. hehe.. :D

i love this picture too! :) many many reasons why. heh heh heh..

hmm..i have never really told anyone how i really feel about being in a band huh. i think everyone just assumed that when you're in a band, 1) you sound good, and 2) you enjoy being in a band.


well..i do enjoy being in a band. but in actual fact, im not that good. or, not good for that matter.


i was just thinking about it on the way to school earlier and i think i can finally put it to words exactly how i feel about band. haha..


to me, band is like an ex-boyfriend. we had lots of good times together and i really enjoyed being with (or in) band. however due to some reasons, we broke up. every now and then i will recall the good times and wish that perhaps we shouldn't have separated. but last semester i decided to give it one last shot. alas...i was not adequate enough. instead of giving me a B or an A, he gave me a C. disappointed, i gave up. but i will still think of the good times i had with (the) band and wonder what it may have been if i went to a different secondary school with a different band instructor.


but whatever la. i think i was not fated to be good. seriously...my primary school instructor was so-so (quite bad la) and my secondary school instructor also so-so (quite bad also). sigh..but lots of factors played in la..Do you know, i joined the band for almost 8 years, i have NEVER played in SYF? so that means that training wasn't very tough and i didnt improve at all. my level of playing became stagnant in sec 3. hmm...but i do like being IN a band. it's really a different feeling playing with a bunch of people. sometimes i do wish things were different..like maybe in sec sch my instructor could have given me a chance to play other instruments instead of the cornet. SIGH....


its over i know..but the trumpet is really made for men..seriously..it just is..being stuck with it was a love/hate thing..i felt i could never improve with it..and it made me feel inferior to men. i have yet to meet a lady who can play the trumpet really well. sigh..but i guess it all boils down to hard work and commitment. i certainly am not committed to the trumpet.


ANYWAY.


I love my friends - nad, yiyun, sinyi.


I love my family - the other 5 of me. (haha..)


I love my roommate - jan.


I love my toiletmates - jieying and amanda.


last but not least,


I love my boyfriend - kokpeng.


:D

in an attempt to be narcissistic. i think i passed with flying colours. haha.. happy new year everyone! :)