Running Out Of Pain....12 stones...

i feel so angst!!!mayb i shld jus dress like a punk, shave my
head n write lyrics tt r angst...ok....mayb i wnt....

anyway,i tink shaun n i r ok...he talked to me like normal...
n my nose bled jus now...while i was under a blk waitin for
de rain to end...tink its cuz of de concert jus nw...all de
performances can haunt me in my sleep...stress...haha.....
dis morn de walk was ok...but y dint dey release us is
BEYOND me....wen we reached scool,we wasted time for
bout like 2hrs plus....i got hit on de head courtesy to lt...tho i
noe she dint mean it...but managed to stay away frm her...
read jurassic park all de way...den came recess...gave presents
to teachers...after...another period of wastage...read jurassic
park all de way...den...concert...horrible...but applaud for
efforts put in...after...another period of wastage...so called
"session with ur form teacher"...utter rubbish...read
jurassic all de way till scool end...came hm strgt...rained
so i took shelter under a blk...read jurassic park all de way...
finished de book already...will pick up another chrichton
book later...perhaps will read... i dno wat...feel like readin
andromeda strain...but book is with abhi...dn tink he had
even read it yet...tink he's V busy...as always...with student
council or sumtin like tt...

dn feel like typin anymore....

later....

Thank you

thanks yiyun n kamal....u guys realy helped
me feel better...=)

Scar Tissue

today was one of de worst days i could ever
experience...i was so confused....cuz...i dno...
its like i jus feel so much animosity from
ppl...its realy confusin me...m i realy TT bad?
tt stuck up?my real frens...those whose
opinion REALY matter to me...

dis morn,wen my bro n i r goin to scool,i teased
my bro bout his hunch,tellin him tt he only started
dis bad habit wen he hung out wif ben...i even
"acted" out de way he walked in jest...i could tell
he was hurt...but still he lashed out angry words
tt realy realy hurt me...

he said tt goin out wif me is very pai seh...n tt i
always tink v highly of myself...he continued
sayin tt i dn care bout wat others tink...so i said
of course...why shld i care wat dey tink bout me
rite?he said tt he heard wat others say bout me
n he finally noe wat they r talkin bout...i got realy
upset...so i said do de ppl who say dis ACTUALLY
noe me?does he even noe me?he no longer talks
to me n he's willin to listen to wat OTHERS say
bout ME his REAL sister...den wen we got up de
bus,i couldn't shut my mouth so i continued sayin
tt i also heard ppl say tings bout him but i DO
defend him...n he only defend his "brothers"
cuz they r closer to him den i am...he kept quiet all
de way...but mind i add...he apologised later
durin recess...but his words r still fresh in my mind...

later in geo class,i unintentionally offended
shaun...i tink i hv an idea y...i tink its cuz he got
dis qn of his approved n was actin like his usual
self bein quite arrogant...so i jokinly said watever
la shaun...he was like huh a few times so i tht he
was jokin too...like usual...so i spelled out de word
n said he shld noe de word unless he failed eng...
he immediately said in chinese tt we shldnt b too
arrogant in a bu shuang tone...i knew he was upset
so i said i was only jokin but altho he said it was
ok i saw his face...it looked angry to me...seriously,i
dn wanna lose my frenship wif shaun...he's realy a
nice fren...later durin recess,i asked him again...
was he angry at me?he waved it away but din say
anythin much.....

after a while wen we were eatin,we found out tt 4/1
hv to come back to scool on teachers' day...i commented
tt de teacher was v hardworkin n jia xin said tt mdm
zakiah is nv hardworkin...in reply i said tt even if she
is n ask us to come back she'll still b complainin...well...
she said woah u realy offended a lot of ppl today...i lost
my appetite completely...i threw away my food n drink...

wen we were linin up i was realy confused...y would
anybody say bad tings bout me...y wld shaun say tt?n y
do ppl dislike me...in a detached view i tink im a fairly
nice person to talk to so y...lt is bein so...i dno...aloof
towards me...i dn tink im bein paranoid...i've gettin dis
kinda attitude for almost a week now...y....wat did i do....
we nv had any arguments or anythin....anyway i got realy
affected n cried a bit while we were linin up...tink its cuz
of my period...its comin soon...

kamal was bein real nice today...after recess he saw my face
n asked me wat had happened...i confided in him n felt
bit better....along de way i teared up sum more...so rite
nw im still confused...jus wish to get out of dis bloody
fucked up scool wif its fucked up ppl n nv come back...
unless if i were to visit mrs liew or de band...as for lt n jx
im no longer goin to say anythin cept pleasantries...did i
get tt spellin rite?anyway....so yea....tt's wat im goin to
do till i graduate...their opinions will no longer matter to
me...i dnt care if both of u tink im pushin darrel too hard
n disapprove of it...if u dn like it den push off...he doesnt
mind...tts wat's important...

so...now...i jus cant wait for all these to end...now i noe
tt i can belong to nowher...sad but tru...pri scool till
now...tink i shld jus get used to it...

wat a fucked up world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Session

helo....

yesterday's play was ok....jonathan looks bit
like morgan...tt was de first ting tt came to my
mind wen i saw him...cool...m meetin him later
for lunch n for some soccer match...he's nt bad
la...can b myself...den again i can b myself wif
ANYONE...its jus de side tt i show...cool...tt's
my fav word now...cool...gees...a bad habit...m
also bringin my hmwk later...

oh n if u can blive it ok...james is in CITY
HARVEST!!!gees!!!

ok...hugh reaction...but still...

so...will write in more tmr...

later...

yesterday's gone....

helo....
me n jonathan hav become fast frens...v comfortable
to talk to...haha....m goin to his church play later at
de eve...n no,im nt goin to fall for him....jus hope we'll
still b frens in de future to come....haha....

birds r flyin high in de sky
for those who hav been set free...
flyin to places unknown
leavin those that they noe...

time has bcome a factor
to those who cannot catch up
forevr chasin it
tryin to make time...

tell me...
do u tink its goin to work?
dividin urself in tens of thousands
tryin so hard to make tings work...

a fleetin shadow u've bcome
come n go we all do...
tell me...
is it goin to work?

Learn the hard way

today in scool was like SUPER borin...m SO lucky no
tests...HAHA.....anyway....had fun durin p.e....was
playin softball..V fun...too bad only left another week
b4 we'll play another type of game i tink....

sian...oh er jie i met a guy named jonathan....he's james'
fren...cuz de no tt i was msgin james to was to dis guy...
(meanin de no i tht was james' was actually dis guy's
no...)no i've nt met him yet...he's a roman catholic n he's
been to ROME...to de vatican(!!!!)......anyway....he's hobby
is photography...talked on de fone wif him yesterday...for
like 20mins...din hv much to say...quite awkward...aya dn
wori la...im nt goin to fantasise....

so...tt sums up like evtin...oh did u noe tt i yawned like ev
3mins?it was TT borin...esp eng lesson....

so...will write in again tmr i guess...m goin out tmr to buy
presents for 2 teachers...

later...

p/s: keshia!!!y nv come.....haha....u chose de wrong day to
skip scool.....bio teat postponed to tmr...hope mdm zakiah
dn come tmr...hehehehe.......i miss u leh keshia...haha......

Creep

dis is hw i feel today...de followin is from de
song hotdog by limp bizkit...excuse de expletives...
if u wan u can skip dis section n go rite down to de
main events...

Here we go
It's a fucked world
We're a fucked up place
Everybody's judged by their fucked up face
Fucked up dreams
Fucked up life
A fucked up kid
With a fucked up knife
Fucked up moms
And fucked up dads
It's a fucked up a cop
With a fucked up badge
Fucked up job
With fucked up pay
And a fucked up boss
Is a fucked up pain
Fucked up press
And fucked up lies
Well, Lethal's in the back
With the fact of the fires

Ain't it a shame
that you can't say "Fuck"
Fuck's just a word
And it's all fucked up
Like a fucked up punk
With a fucked up mouth
A nine ninch nail I'll get knocked the fuck out
Fucked up babes
Who fucked up sex
Fake ass titties
On a fucked up chest
We're all fucked up
So whatcha wanna do?
We fucked up me
And fucked up you

Ain't life a bitch?
A fucked up bitch
A fucked up soul with a fucked up stitch
A fucked up head
Is a fucked up shame
Swinging on my nuts
Is a fucked up game
Jealousy filling up a fucked up mind
It's real fucked up
Like a fucked up crime
If I say "Fuck", two more times
That's fourty six "Fucks" in this fucked up rhyme


ok.end ok song...noe y i feel so... ... ?cuz dis fucked
up sadistical ... s.o.d drove rite into de BIG puddle
no POOL of water in front of de bus stop wher
i was standin!!!so wat was de results?me,bein
TOTALLY SOAKED in de front!!!!!!!
ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

n tt STUPID 67 bus driver...ALWAYS will go past
de bus stop w/o stoppin to see if ANYONE wants
to get up de bus...i mean PLS...he had gone past my
scool bus stop for dunno how many million times alredy...
he shld noe by now de 'peak' hours rite?there'll ALWAYS
b ppl goin up 67 durin dis time k...idiot driver....NO
COMMON SENSE...

im so full of ANGST!!!!!!!!!

goin to cool down...

later..

tuesday...

nt much happened today...managed nt to
trip on de way to recess (i ran..haha...)....
well since i've taken to eatin wif my frens
every recess,i hv to fight for my food u noe...
*sigh*....

ok so anyway...kinda skipped maths group
tingy wif mrs liew jus nw..ermm....it wasn't
realy skip la...it was halfway tru tt i excused
myself...haha...cuz i wanted to go wif kim liang,
yiling n zi yang to PS to buy cup mute...hehe...
still owe dem $1.50....

came hm round 6.30,saw my bro at blk downstairs
n he asked me for 50cents...gave him of course...
tho im like SUPER broke...5cents anyone?oh which
reminds me...

dis incredible *%^#$%$#^% threw a bottle cap at
ME durin recess!!i donno if he was aimin but if he
was,he was damn accurate ok!!it hit my FACE leh!!!
QI SI WO LE!!!i dint throw back la of course...m nt
goin to sink to his level of incredible childishness...
(actually de truth was tt i was nt confident tt if i
threw it'd hit his face....)so wat did i do?v lame...
i slammed de bottle cap on de table...i mean he's
like 16....can he PLS grow up?boys...
forever childish...

rite...m now goin to slack...hehe....

later...

dear readers...

de pic below was sent in by my sis
while i was bein v hardworkin
(erhrmmm....)in scool....see how
she bully me cuz i dunked her
yesterday? *evil laugh*wahahahahaha
hahaha....i DID dunk her yesterday...
sorry keshia...i forgot...she was on de
float n i flipped de float...me N my mom....
wahahahahahahahahahahahaha..............
but is tt counted as dunkin?nt sure....but...
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha....

alrite..i admit..yesterday was....fun....but de
place was so small...no kick...haha...but de
shower was like WOAH....it WAS GREAT
MAN...sumtin tt my family can NV afford...
all tt wastage of water...

my father sent me a present which i went to
take jus now...V CUTE!!!haha.....he gave me
dis REALLY CUTE soft toy,a hp pouch n a
mirror...hmm...haha.....thanks papa!!!!!i luv u!!!
i'll tell u later...haha......

oh n if u find de player in my blog v irritatin,
im sori..cant do anythin bout it though...cuz
i realy like de songs i put in it...haha...all u hv
to do is to press stop...its on de player itself...
use ur eyes if u cant find it...

so.......

will write in again tmr i guess....

actually i feel bit disappointed...tt guy din
even call to wish me happy bday...i swear
i wrote it down on in his calender...well...
life isnt always an oyster i guess...did i get tt
rite?life isnt always an oyster?ahh...watever....

later....

p/s: yiyun!!!i miss u u noe...y nv come scool....

...the spectacles-sisters on NATIONAL DAY!!!... 

happy birthday to me..... =)

IM SIXTEEN!!!!!!!!

gees........seems like so old already...
wonder how my mom feels...all her
kids growin up so at such a fast rate...
she's a great woman my mom...
this mornin at one++ my mom came
into my room n wished me happy
bday...de ting she said was...
"zhe mo da liao le hor..."
gees.....haha....i jus luv her to bits......
oh n de reason why she could come into
my room at one++ was cuz she had
fallen aslp on de couch....like she always
does while watchin late nite shows...

so now...while my mom n sis r buyin
me breakfast *evil smile*.........im goin
to type till i finish dis entry...oh n i noe
its suppose to b a surprise but....i noe
where im goin later.....*sigh*......its wet n
wild or wet wet wild or wild wet wet.....
watever u call it....im quite adamant bout
it.......BUT

im goin to enjoy myself!!!cant wait to dunk
my sis into de pool...hahahahahahahahahaha
hahahahahahahahahah.....................................
call me evil man......hahahahahahahhahahahaha
ahahhahahahaha.......

ok......m goin to check my frienster.....

my email add is kwq88@hotmail.com so anyone
who feels like checkin my frienster page can see...
haha..

later...

will write in more i tink.......

tmr i will b like a sorry tomato...

wish me luck *crosses fingers*
haha.......

what it takes....

today my frens celebrated my bday for me in de
morn......m really glad to hv dem as frens n
classmates....got presents n free cake....hehe.....

THANK YOU YY,LT,JX n everyone
else who contributed to my bday....

HAPPY BDAY ERIC...ur ONE day
OLDER than me...

i'll giv u a present on mon...haha...

today after scool i met up wif nic to buy my
bday present(s) haha.....n to celebrate my bday
as im nt goin out wif her on sun....

anyway...erm....we went to orchard kinoyaku to
buy comics, den we were walkin towards de heereen
wen it started to rain heavily...actually it was drizzlin
already...so...as we were coincidently walkin past
swensens, we went in...hehe...to eat of course...n to bi yu...
n to read comics...after de meal(nic treat),we continued
our way as i wanted to see if there was ANY last days
of april cd...disappointin news greeted me at de door...
no la...m jus bein lame..i went in hmv to search n guess
wat?de ans is no,young lady...rite u guessed it...i tht they
r well known?i mean well known in europe...if de GREAT
HMV dont even hv....i tink i can forget bout searchin
other shops....perhaps im jus findin an excuse cuz im
lazy..haha......

can u blieve it?im actually listenin to jay chou now....tink
its quite nice...OH NO!!!!!!!!!SOME BODY SAVE ME!!!!

anyway....we took bus to her house....found an
OVERWHELMIN need to pee halfway durin de journey...
gees...all de ice-cream i ate bcame immediate liquid...
(duh!!).....ok i drank a lot of water in addition to tt too....
guess its cuz it was DAMN BLOODY COLD...de er......
DHA(?) no ADH gave a -ve feedback n my body found
tt i DIDNT need so much h2o after...sad....

realy like qi li xiang n jie kou...OH NO!!!!!!!!!! lucky
its nt goin to b a long like.....gees.......

wen we reach her house it was a mad rush to de loo...
den washed my hands n continued my way to her
room to read MORE comics...haha....read until 6++
den i left....took 15 hm n dropped one bus stop earlier
by mistake...walked in de nice weather hm...cool....

so m now...usin de com...haha.....im SUCH a PIG.....
jus shoot me....i tink i hv to stop sayin tt....scully one
day someone REALY shoot me...gees....

so im goin to er....do sumting else sides de com...
darrel's goin to like SO kill me lor...haha.....

later..............................

tell me why
time passes so quickly
without me knowing.

tell me why
the world spins so fast
that i when i turn my head
i find myself lost.

is there a reason for all these?
since there's a reason for everything
in this a farked-up world.

why are there so many choices
yet we still can see wars and fights?
worthless things that can be solved otherwise.

why must there be extremes?
will it cause imbalance if there isn't?
or is just something that humans must do:
find faults.

why must love be blind
with all the shit coming up only in the end?
tell me im being cynical...
tell me im being unkind...

what is the world coming to?
will there be a change?
will we then all die?

what will i be 10 years from now?
will i even try to continue my life?
why do i even bother...
since i can't even write
some form of a good poem...

teachers' day is coming.
who should i thank?
even if i do...
do u tink i'll sound sincere?

my birthday's coming
but what will it change
besides the fact
that im now of a legal age to have sex

my 'O's are coming
a shit exam that will decide the fate of my life
with just on pieces of shit paper that i'll never see
for the rest of my life

what IS the point then?
of living in this farked-up world
with all the people who are greedy and selfish?
with all the rules and restrictions?
with us doing things that are commanded by DEAD people?

tell me why
..........

3 days since.....

HELO!!!

its been five days since u looked at me...
(deh deh deh deh deh deh deh deh deh deh deh...)
its been two days three weeks n ur sori...

er....tt last paragraph was actually lyrics/
"half" lyrics from tt er song.....dno de title la....
haha.....anyway...

on a monday, i am waiting
tuesday, i am fading
and by wednesday, i can't sleep
then the phone rings, i hear you
and the darkness is a clear view
cuz you've come to rescue me

haha......tt...was lyrics from ashlee simpson's
song 'pieces of me'......

today, i saw JEREMY RODNAM!!!!
ok it wasn't like hoobastank or sumting...
i also saw shuwei...she's realy pretty in
real life...oh in case ur wonderin if shes de one
who always goes "power ninety aight"...yup...
"shes de one......"....shes nt bad in person u noe...
haha....jeremy rodnam also has accent wat...

so.....

will write in tmr again...

later

yesterday's gone....Part 3.

Sunday:
fuck......stupid ad....popped in n
my hardwork was all wiped off...
!!!!!!!!!!.........

ok....anyway.....wat i was typin was
actually tt i decided to type another
entry...i woke up,ate my aunt's
homemade peach tarts which tastes
jus like de real ting, perhaps even
better,went out n picked my sis up
at simei,went to millenia walk,went to
sheng shiong,went home,knocked out
flat,woke up to eat dinner,watched
"just married",den olympics reviews,
bathed,watched susilo vs dan lin....
went to slp round 2am...

ok....im done....haha........

later

yesterday......part 2.

i tink my oral went OK!!!!hehe.........oh.........i realised
tt i din write in for friday,sat n sun!!

Friday:
....nothin much happened...went strgt hm after scool...
turned on de com,used it for like 2 hrs...den my bro
wanted to use....so i et him...den i went to look for de
cat...found her in my bro's room,n i slept with her on
my chest...V cute cat...tho she
KEEPS ON INSISTIN ON BITIN MY
FINGERS/ TOES/FEET.....

anyway...woke up feelin woozy,found tt i slept for
bout 2hrs... NEW CENTURY PIG ROCK ON!!!!
.........gees.....jus shoot me...

Saturday:
ok...er

1) band phototakin......
i reached scool round 9.20am n went strgt to de
canteen cuz i wanted to get sum breakfast...saw my
section practisin in de canteen...got a kinda feelin tt
tugged my heart,u noe...my section...nw its nt realy
my section anymore....................................
..........ok er anyway....i sat down...next to de sec1s...
den i realised tt i ACTUALLY MISS de band....i
miss hangin out wif dem...jus call me a geek...i'll b
fine..haha!!rite...den i started to try to get dem to play
like last time...gees...dey noe SO MUCH already!!!
i mean of course la...but still....ok...AFTER de
photo takin,we all went into de band room...realy
MISS tt place... miss kang announced de new
committee ppl...
(jie min!!!JIA YOU OK!!!bein sectional leader is nt
tt hard!!=D)
(my section RULES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

2)er jie's convocation
so i "rushed" hm...saw my er jie usin de com...went
to bathe....it was V,V hot ok de weather....came out...
gathered my tings n waited for my er jie...we took a
taxi to suntec...she went first..i waited for my mom...
den we went in....ok la...my er jie....goin to
UNIVERSITY... shes like SO OLD
ALREADY......haha...... (shes gonna kill me for typin
dis down.....HAHA!!)i mean..next yr she'll b like 20!!
today she started scool for de first time in like..........
er.....8 mths??anyway....convocation finished by 5.30....
for my mom n i...er jie had to stay bhind for sum rock
concert...by den both of us (er jie n i) had decided to
go for de HOOBASTANK concert.... my mom was
quite adamant bout it...i felt quite bad....leavin my
mom like tt....anyway...

3) HOOBASTANK concert!!!!!!!!
we reached dere round 7.10...thot it started already
so i walked V fast...my sis was like "y dn u jus run..."
......of course nt!!haha...so dere we were walkin in
formal dressin...to a ROCK concert...haha......it
was de BEST impulsive ting i've EVER done...but
a turn off was de PRICE OF DE TIX!!!from $59,it
went up to $71!!!well.................. bye bye $12..............
bye bye 2 comics.............ok anyway......we went in,
found a spot n waited for 2 bands to finish their
songs...de second one..."de ocean band" was quite
ok....de lead was v funny....had quite a big butt..
hehe...oh de next best ting was tt i stood next to an
ANG MOH guy who was VVVV
CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!to me la of course...but he
inched my sis out tho...dno wat he wanted....he
disappeared halfway tru de concert...sad...haha....
but he was V stiff... r u even a hoobastank fan?or r
u jus wastin $$??i was like screamin my head n throat
off lor!!n singin to all de songs....
DOUG TOOK OFF
HIS SHIRT!!!!HIS BODY IS SO DAMN
HOT..........AHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha....i still cant die down from de whole
experience...oh btw,dis is nt my first concert...its jus tt
it was GREAT..........oh n in de end,ev1 climbed over
de fence....my sis n i jus jumped....formal wearin n all...
haha.........IT WAS FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOOBASTANK
ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yesterday.........all my troubles seemed to go away.......

HEY!!!!!!!!!!haha.........yesterday 3 BIG
events happened....

1) band photo
2) er jie's convocation
3) HOOBASTANK CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WENT TO DE HOOBASTANK CONCERT!!!!!!
IT WAS GGGGGGRRRRRREEEAAAAATTTT!!!!!!!!

hahha............i will write in later cause nw i've no time.....
m rushin to finish usin de com....
anyway...


I LUV HOOBASTANK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOOBASTANK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOOBASTANK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOOBASTANK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOOBASTANK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOOBASTANK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOOBASTANK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOOBASTANK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOOBASTANK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.......

i got back my chinese results at 10 dis morn...
well...was both disappointed n happy...
well.............cuz i've gotten a B4...sad its nt a 3
happy its nt a 5...haha...its clearly my paper
tt was lackin cuz i had a merit for my oral...
sad...dont tink i'll be retakin...i mean wat for..
i dint put in my best effort for dis exam...do u
tink i'll actually put in more effort for de next
exam?.....fan nao...

so nw...its to tackle prelims...HOW......gees......
m nt in a gd mood...evday passes me by like a
blur....time is awastin....wat to do.....all i do is
talk n no do...even shaun had gotten an A1...for
his chinese i mean...

m now listenin to depressin songs...sad...
'specially de one im listenin...its nt de tune tts
sad...its de lyrics...wonder wat topic will come
up on mon...

GD LUCK TO THOSE
TAKIN ORAL THEIR TMR

yiyun...dn b too nervous k...

im sick of typin...m takin sooooooo
long to type a sentence....
if u care to note,dere's no complete sentence
in ALL my entries...my eng is realy bad,man....
hope my dad takes de news ok..........................
sigh.......................................................................

later...

gee.......

guess wat??results r tmr!!nt today...
prepare my funeral only to hv my
death postponed to tmr...

well...nt much happened today...
darrel moved back to become my
partner...so now im sandwiched agn...
last yr was kamal...but darrel isnt so
bad...its de constant talkin btween
him n shaun is de one...well...tchers
hv compained....thus de resuts...
already startin to miss my solitude...
i mean jus on my left...cuz darrel's
sittin on my left...

oh n if u can blieve it...mdm zakiah
said i was a "very serious student"!!!
ha!!it kinda sounded like shes tryin to
convince herself....hehe....but anyway..
thanks mdm zakiah...

tmr has bio test...gonna study soon..
oops!!!hv to check dinner!!!

later....

wat in de world?!!

ok,actually nothin spectacular
happened..haha...i went out of
my house at like 8.40am today
to go meet tiff at jurong mrt so
we can study...haha...went to
boonlay wen i met her to jurong
pt....ate breakfast(kuay chup...
NT tt gd...de uncle gave me SO
LITTLE sauce!!niao man!!),walked
round bit so can "xiao hua"...

went to mos burger n started doin...
maths first mind u...haha...did tt till
one plus...den we left de place cus
we had to pee...haha...den we went
outside wher coffee bean had chairs
n tables n gd shade...did more stuff
till three plus...went to buy sm food
to eat...walked round sm more...
bought 2 comics...

went back mos burger...did more stuff
(i din read comic ok...>p)...till five fifty...
left de place to meet my sis...watched
the village wif her...hey it was NT BAD
ok...so u anti-village ppl watch out...
i mean look at it from another angle
sides ur narrow-minded pt...its great...
i mean who'd tht de endin wld b SO
diff...did u?i mean all u ppl tht was
perhaps de endin wld b de same as de
other stories but it turned out to b diff...
it managed to FOOL ev1,CAPTURE KEY
messages,n at de same time,make u tink!!!
has watchin SPIDERMAN DONE TT TO
U??(sori if i offended any1..nt exactly a great
spidey fan...more of a x-men-GAMBIT!!!-
I-LUV-U kinda fan...*hee*)

oh n did u noe tt m. night shyamalam
appeared in a cameo??hehe..bet u dint...
he was de one holdin de newspaper nearin
de end...u can actually see his face in de
reflection in de med cabinet...oh!!!n in de
newspaper dere had a report bout a 7-yr old
boy who went missin rite?i tink it had sumtin
to do with de beginnin...cus de boy who died
was 7-yrs old too!!!

realy cool show i guess...my sis is CRAZY
over tt show...n m. night shyamalam...

k...i guess i hv to slp now...goin to b 12 soon....
NO ENGLISH!!!!!!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!
HAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nite..

see u tmr...

will tell u disappointin news...

wait for it...

cuz it'll b my death...

pls play "ballad for de dead frens"
by dashboard prophets in my funeral...

national day...

im quite sian...m quite frustrated...
got my red letter today...nice nuff to
clash with national day...on de day
wher ppl wear red...

my mom luvs to play mind games
u noe...im quite tired of it...its like
for eg:
mom: wanqi, help me take tt ting.
me: wat ting?
mom: ahyah...tt ting!
me: wat ting!!!
mom: de one on de table!!de plate
la!!!

how m i suppose to noe i ask u?
another eg:
i threw de bones of de chicken i ate
into de dustbin.she says,"ahyah...
i put de plastic bag on de table
already for u to throw de bones..."
(note: she did nt mention ANYTHIN
bout de plastic bag b4,nor did i notice
it.)HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO NOE...

i noe im suppose to notice evthin
round me but sumtimes i jus dn...
jus wish she'll stop de habit tt ev1 can
read her mind n noe wats she tinkin...
ahhhhhhhh..............................................
nw im hvin a mood swing...my mood's
quite bad...darn cat bites my toes/fingers/
leg whenever i go near it!!!n my ______
bro...he wakes up sooooo late ( 3.30pm)
n acts like he's de king!!argh.......................
i cant stand him!!!!!!n he also took de fone
my da jie brought hm from de UK (a nokia
new modal) n lend it to his gf!!!!!!!!!who de
@#$%^^&% does he tink he is!!!!!!!!!!!i mean
its a fone my sis brought 4 de FAMILY!!!!!!its
nt his u noe!!!!!!!argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat a MCP!!!!!!!!!!!

im sori s'pore...im jus nt in a gd mood...
@#$%^&*&^$%##$@#$%^&#$%^&&%$^&!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok....im goin to play some yahoo game or
sumthin to try to cool down...

later....

i jus wanna announce to de world tt
i REALY love my mom n er jie a lot...
tt dey r de only ones wher i REALY
enjoy hangin out with...tt i REALY hv
A LOT of fun with dem...tt i wld rather
go out with dem more den i'd go out
with sumone else....tt dey r like de first
piority in my life...I LOVE U WOMEN...
n pls...im nt les or incest...haha...

jus nw i went dinner with my mom n sis
to 85 market...ate chicken wings n ba
chor mee...wasn t gd...anyway,saw
alan n alaine...s'pore is realy a SMALL
country...lucky din see tt _____....fill in
de blanks..haha...

after tt went to CS...bought de
comic/mag...den went metro...nothin
to see...den..went TM...heard
radiohead songs!!!de first foor gt
de contact lens promo so got DJ...he
was playin songs from a radiohead
album...woohoo...it was great...sis
says to ask her fren ahbi to buy
as my bday present...haha....haha.....
haha...i'll b gettin 3 cds den....haha...
...haha....haha...haha........haha......
haha.........haha.........haha........haha.....

listenin to a song called Ballad For
Dead Friends by Dashboard Prophets...
it's great...my fav song for nw...haha...
prob wn last for long...but its realy nice...

its nice to noe tt u've got a family
who'll always b dere u noe...its jus a
diff feelin from frens...here r de ppl
who've seen u as a kid while u shitted,
ate shit,played wif shit...its jus diff...
im REALLY LUCKY...i guess tts y
im at peace with myself...cuz i've got
a family who'll love me,trust me,stand
by me,have faith in me,feed me (haha...),
support me...n i will do de same for
dem...jus wish my bro tinks de same...
all he cares bout is his gal n his gal...
n his gal...n his frens...wher r we by
de way...prob at de end of his piorities...
sad...

well its dif for eveyone i guess...some
jus prefer their frens to their family...
Family...tts a word tt de newspaper
here utters at least once a day....if a
kid goes bad,is his/her family to blame?
y cant it b their OWN CHOICE...sad...
another OVERused word is STRESS...
everyone says tt they r stressed...
wat IS tt word?wat does it mean??
tts all they can say,pushin all their probs
on tt one word...do they even NOE wat
it means?do they?....well i dont...i guess
everyone has their own definations of tt
word...

i jus realised tt dis has got to b de
LONGEST entry i've EVER typed...
gees....n i've taken bout an hour to type it...
my typin's realy slow,man....haha....
alrite...im quite sick of typin already...
but still cant resist typin crap...
seriously...i cant seem to stop wastin
my time...ok gotta stop...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
SINGAPORE!!!!

HAPPY NATIONAL
DAY EVERYONE!!!

nite....

sunday.........

"steppin out....."...dis is de meteor garden

cartoon song..only noe dis 2 eng words...

rest is jap...nt decodable...so anyway...

today's sunday...n im doin my thang

...
which is studyin...or at least im TRYING

to...as u can see im nt tt successful...de lure

of de com is too great to resist... so im nw sittin

here typin crap...n eatin mamee...pls tell me

im pathetic...no correct tt...im SUPER pathetic

...i jus finished my packet of mamee...m reachin

for another one...NEW CENTURY PIG RITE

ON!!!!!

i jus love it wen my house is quiet...its as if im

alone in de house...which im apparantly nt...mah

bro's still sleepin... i dno y ppl like to immitate

dis sortof accents...mah thang for eg makes me

feel like miss/mdm/mrs/ms-im-so-stressed-
n-helpless-but-i-wanna-b-famous fantasia...

aka fish lips...yea im mean...mayb i can star in

mean girls...haha...

tmr's ND!!!ye!!!!singapore is finally reachin 40!!!!

i noe she's 39...but still....haha.....i wonder if wen

im 40 i'll b divorced wif 2 kids n writin a book

called "How to cope with your life"...n at de same
time,plannin to remarry...will my 2 husbands b

handsome?or will dey b extremely diff from wat

i expect?or will i jus b a idealistic-shit
spinster who nobody wants??i tink it'll most likely

b...none of de above...haha...i noe i tink TOO much

...so jus shoot me...

i better go back to wher i belong rite nw...will write

in later...

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's" Inferno Test

i got de test from natasha's bog...=)

yiyun!!im sori!!!

i so sori...din mean to nt ans ur call...
din ans cos i din noe de no...pls 4giv me...*sob*...
anyway r u ok?jus woke like 15min ago n read ur
entry...once again,realy sori i din ans ur call...
im goin to see de doc soon...so will call u soon k?
hope ur feelin better...

wat a day....

nothin much happened today cept tt it's
YIYUN'S BDAY!!!!gave her a ZJL
'live' cd...well she had a SPECTACULAR
bday for sure...haha...de presents she got...
whoa...it was like a BIG BAG...nt only tt...
liting had asked most of yiyun's frens to pen
a short note for her n she had folded all these
notes into hearts n had put dem all in dis
enlarged milk bottle...so sweet...haha...nw
yiyun dont noe wat to giv liting...tell u de
truth,me neither...haha...oh n mr james chua
actually bought a "cake" cut a candle on it n
asked yiyun to blow it out.it was realy cool...
anyway,tmr im goin to wear sum chinese ting...
borrowed it from suhana...gurl,i owe u my life...
last i also borrowed a costume from her...both
dis n last yr were v late request n she was ok
with it...realy cool...dis gurl...haha...anyway...
im goin to eat dinner nw...mom jus cooked mee
for me...oh one more ting!!we're goin to celebrate
YY's bday at de beach tmr!!hope it's fun!!haha...

im so SIAN.........

u noe wat??!!!i jus bloody DELETED
my fresh written entry!!!!!!!dno hw to
undo...so m nw writin AGAIN...but de
feelings gone so wats de pt...SIAN.....
..ok...will giv a BRIEF summary...
basically,i jus complained,n agreed
with wat yi yun had said several times
nw,tt im a "new century pig".u noe wat...
i jus realised tt my life is nt as spectacular
to read bout,but im glad i dn hv so much
drama in my life...like tt song tt goes
sumtin like "...No more drama in my
life..."...if i do i'll b so DRAINED...n i
seriously cant handle it...will most prob
blow tings out of proportion or sumtin...
i tend to exagerate tings quite easily...u
noe wat...im so tired of bein so self-consious
...always watchin hw i behave,hw i look,
hw i will "look" like in front of ppl...ok
mayb nt de last pt...n hw ppl will tink of
me...i guess its normal...compared to other
ppl i tink im actually quite ok...oh..n i
noticed tt dere r a lotof ppl who hv V
obvious low self esteem...dey walk
round tinkin tt dere r ppl who r lookin
at dem(i learned dis from my erjie who
CONSTANTLY tells ME to stop actin as if
ppl r lookin at me...its in de way i walk...
im tryin nt to...erjie...)next time u shld try
to observe...esp de malay girls in our scool...
u noe...de more "well-known" n "active"
ones...look at de way dey act,talk,laugh..
watever...dey r v obviously tryin to gain
attention...like tt shahidah jus nw in de
hall...wen shu xian went up to get de peer
tutorin cert (i got one by de way...haha...)
she actually shouted sumtin unintelligentable
i mean PLS...u're such an attention-seeker.
u deliberately wear black round ear rings
jus to gain attention.jus cuz ur in 4/3 n de
rest of ur frens r in de lower end classes
u act as if ev1's so borin as if U r de
MOST interestin punker we'v GOT...pls
get one ting rite ok...NO ONE IS LOOKIN
AT U...i noe tt by de time any1 finishes
readin tt sentence,u prob tink im a bitch...
n tt i tink im sooo perfect tt i tink i noe
EVERYTHING...i noe i gotta change for de
better too...jus wish tt dere wasn ANYONE
who makes fun of others...as if THEY r so
GREAT n hav de RIGHTS to HUMILIATE
others...sigh...dis entry is so full of angst...haha...
its 8.10pm nw...better go n do maths...see u den...
bye...

"Hey! Megalomaniac! You're no Jesus! Yeah, you're no f**king Elvis! Wash your hands clean of youself baby and step down! Step down! Step down!" 

LWY 

My toast....

Here's to GOD, to LIFE, n to HELL...
May we live a good life for the rest of our days...
Peace to the world.....

the other day...

the other day, i went to check out the frens of
this junior of mine in Friendster n guess who i saw?
Alan!!n my EX!!realy i couldn't believe my eyes...
wat coincidence...anyway...my ex, who's dis realy
OLD guy (i hav a V bad taste in guys), had FINALLY
gotten a girlfren who's NEAR his age. i tink shes 18
or sumthin...he's 22 by the way..yeah can't believe it rite?

oh did u noe??(u probably dnt) i did dis blog
page under VERY HEAVY influence of my er jie...
actually almost everythin i do is influenced by her...
sad rite...haha.......er jie i luv u....haha............