Freedom

4 more days to complete freedom.

when you're sad and confused you tend to find all sorts of reasons to convince yourself and ease the pain.


hence when you find a reasonable one, you stick to it and call it your reason.


times like this, this reason is called an assumption.


which another can easily dispute.


today would be our 8th month. this number is my curse.


but...there is no room for regrets. only a door that leads to the future.


i did love my last boyfriend very much. i admit. i didn't know how to love him enough, didn't know how to treat him like a good girlfriend should.


but like i said..there is no room for regrets. and no door to turn back.


i can only walk forward..and not do those stupid things i did again.


this will be my letter of apology..and explanation. to him and myself.


i really wish you all the happiness you can find. and i hope your life will turn out the way you want it to be.


take care.. and be happy.

Goodbye Tonight

in a short span of 2 and a half years,


i met 3 three guys,


imagined myself in love with 2,


fell in love with one.


all completely different.


but all fundamentally the same.


they didn't love or like me.


they loved themselves.


i didnt regret my time with them. they're not mistakes. merely lesson learned. why did i fall for them? i am very soft. and very easy to get. just sweet talk me. that's all it took.


but things are going to change.


im going to change.


here is to a future with someone who loves ME. like i will love him.


for the better or worse.

Autumn leaves

i had a post earlier. before my sister left for shanghai. my stupid and selfish brother installed 2 stupid games into this very new and fast com and now it has slowed down. stupid shit. i can't even bring back that post or save it before so i can post it now or something. f**ing hell.


had put in lots of pictures.


sigh..


as you can tell, im not in the mood to blog happy things and happy thoughts.


i wish i can see into the future.


and see how is it that im going to live my life.


at least if i am not going to be happy,


i can change it now.


or something.

If you want to be happy for the rest of your life

Go ZARA!!!


QUICK!!!


haha..the bright coloured clothings i bought from ZARA, they are HERE!!!!!!!!!


WAH HA HA!!!


here are some pictures - i was SO happy.


:)







okay la. forgive the black skirt. was working before that and i was meeting up with J-Nice. :)


i bought the white top. and compared to MNG or Topshop, in terms of pricing, design, fabric and of course, colour, this new ZARA collection can put them out of business for this summer.
*grins happily*


let's hope the shoes will follow suit. anytime now.


SO exciting!!


:D