when you're sad and confused you tend to find all sorts of reasons to convince yourself and ease the pain.


hence when you find a reasonable one, you stick to it and call it your reason.


times like this, this reason is called an assumption.


which another can easily dispute.


today would be our 8th month. this number is my curse.


but...there is no room for regrets. only a door that leads to the future.


i did love my last boyfriend very much. i admit. i didn't know how to love him enough, didn't know how to treat him like a good girlfriend should.


but like i said..there is no room for regrets. and no door to turn back.


i can only walk forward..and not do those stupid things i did again.


this will be my letter of apology..and explanation. to him and myself.


i really wish you all the happiness you can find. and i hope your life will turn out the way you want it to be.


take care.. and be happy.