hi all


i cut my hair.

Sometimes i wonder if im undermining myself. I seriously am fickle-minded. No, this is not a "I-Hate-Myself" entry.


But one thing is for sure. I am happy. This is something no one can take from me, I guess. My happiness. Or, perhaps, it is because i really had fun for the last 3 weeks training with my new found friends. It makes me want to join other things. Like Hall Production. Haha..kick start my acting career. OKay. Im just kidding. haha..


Another 7 more days. I can't believe i endured/survived the last 3 weeks without him. Must be the cheerleading. But still, it really really had been fun. I'd upload the video of our routine during competition if i could but the size is damn big and blogger.com cannot upload such a big file (max size is 100mb). The file is 1gb.


I do have pictures la. But kinda lazy to upload now. haha..the picture in the entry before this is one we took before the competition started. Our skirts weren't supposed to be long when we're in that formation.


Well, i guess come feb till april i better be burying my head in my books if i want to do well...sigh..

HALL T W O LET'S GO! WE SAY!

HAHAHAHAH....


we got into the TOP 5 MAN!!! WAHAHAHAHAH....

I Ran Away

Hi everyone. I'm doing great. The great big bruise is almost gone. Haha..thanks for everyone's concern.


Anyway, I didn't join the school cheerleading la! haha..though it'll be kinda cool to do so right..hahaha..Im in the cheerleading team for my hall for the upcoming cheer competition amongst the halls. That bruise was my one and only big bruise. That is visible that is. hahahaha...


I'll be counting down to another 20 more days. Everything is still okay. We're still doing well. The yearning to be near is not so strong yet...maybe after chinese new year? hmm..Well I'm not being pessimistic (though I have to admit I have tendencies), just realistic.


Tutorial today was okay. One tutor didn't come for my last class and after half hour of waiting i left. Time wasters.


Work last saturday was okay. Witnessed a political cat fight between my co-workers, one full time one permanent part-time. At least I do not hold much threat to them. Last thing I'd want is to get involved. *shudders*


If anyone wants to catch me (and the rest of the team) in action flying and dancing and cheering (triple combo!), the competition is on 23 Jan, Wednesday, around 6 or 7. Come and support Hall 2! heh...we might have a shot at not being last 3. haha!

the warrior scar from cheerleading. hahaha..

Excited, Anxious, Worried

My darling just left not too long ago for the great motherland of a different species of chinese people. Hope he'll be okay. Gonna miss him a lot. Don't really know how things are going to turn out. For him and for us. Though he'll be back in 28 days, then going again for...4 months...we'll just have to wait and see...Everyone knows that the person who leaves is not going to miss the people back home as much as the opposed right? hmm...


I dont know la.


Just want him to be safe and sound.

not enough

I had a slight bout of depression this afternoon, leading me to conclude that I've had it with being so fucking critical about myself.


Fuck la.


I've had it. I don't have to care what the hell people think about me. Or what they will think about me.


I hate being so insecure about my everything.


Fuck.


But I met mygreatlove who gave me a nice big hug with the promise that everything will be okay. Made me feel better instantly...


Thanks to my darlings who are always be there for me!


Sigh....FUCK LA. Today is NOT a good day for me.