My First Anniversary

We had a very nice and romantic and brainless dinner. Haha..outside his room at a bench table with all our ta-paoed food and disposable wine glasses and table cloth. Cheapo but romantic nonetheless.


We have already done the dine-in-some-high-class-place-and-take-many-pictures thingy in Beijing. In fact we did it so many times in Beijing we felt we can't do it here in Singapore anymore. Haha..Too expensive and not as good. Maybe it's just the novelty of doing things like these overseas.


I like the way we did our anniversary. We went to ADM once again after that. Nope..no pictures for that..


I hope I will spend more anniversaries with him. I really hope to do that. :]

After being with someone for a year, one will start to think if that someone is "right", right? I've doing some thinking recently, wondering if the things that are happening now are just temporary and if I'm just focusing on the details and not the big picture. I have been rather rational recently in my bid to maintain some self-control over my emotions, and I find myself constantly analysing the little things. Do I really know this man as I know him to be? Or is he actually someone else entirely? Recent happenings have made me face with the fact that things can't always be what I expected them to be. I am trying to find a way to face situations like that normally and not go hysterical like what I have been doing. How difficult or easy is it for me to just "let go"? To me, letting go is the hardest part. Am I really okay or am I forcing myself to BE okay. Sometimes I really wonder. What is right?


I don't want my life to be controlled by "should"s. I just want to be as free and happy as I can.