tmr is the last day of exam. cool. nic and i discussed our future
yesterday. if our prelim results are not good, we'll work in december,
and then go travelling in january. real cool right. can't wait. shaun
went for army today. like his shaved image better. haha. anyway.
will write in more tmr. i think. if i don't this is what's going to happen
tomorrow. my family will take a family photo for my da jie's post grad
photo. so. bye.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Paranoid android
for the past 2 days i've muggin. Or at least tryin to.
All i can say is im beat and i dn't really know
whether or not anything has gone in. I dn't know
whether i'm wasting my time either. Seriously i just
realised i threw away a good 20 marks for NOTHING
for my amaths paper 1. Ok granted i dint even look
through my amaths notes cuz i cant find it. Ok i now
admit that im too arrogant. My father's comin back
tomorrow. I havent told him about my chinese results.
Think he'll be defnately disappointed. Oh how do u read
dis-->tym?
afiq msged me dis n i was totally baffled. Its pronounced
as time. Maybe im de only suaku here. whatever. tomorrow
will be social studies and emaths. *sigh*...
come what may...
All i can say is im beat and i dn't really know
whether or not anything has gone in. I dn't know
whether i'm wasting my time either. Seriously i just
realised i threw away a good 20 marks for NOTHING
for my amaths paper 1. Ok granted i dint even look
through my amaths notes cuz i cant find it. Ok i now
admit that im too arrogant. My father's comin back
tomorrow. I havent told him about my chinese results.
Think he'll be defnately disappointed. Oh how do u read
dis-->tym?
afiq msged me dis n i was totally baffled. Its pronounced
as time. Maybe im de only suaku here. whatever. tomorrow
will be social studies and emaths. *sigh*...
come what may...
Thursday, September 23, 2004
This photograph is proof (I know you know)
everything went ok today. shaun's at my house now,
trying to learn how to play the guitar. Jia you, man.
physics was ok...
you know what...I think I should just get a new life.
don't you think it's sickening? To tell you the truth, I'm
actually itching for a guy...gees. How that sentence
sounds. I mean...why can't i get a decent guy? My past
guys are like....unromantic. I can't really talk real stuff (
/scholar stuff/future/life in general/debates about things/
SMART THINGS. you know? i don't make sense. But
that's not uncommon for me.) with them either. Am i
being superficial? probably. They don't even LIKE the
same music as me. I mean i try to get to know what they
like and everything. am i not good
enough to be found out about? am i not interesting
enough? maybe i'm just looking for love at the wrong places.
then where to look? wait for the guy to miraculously appear
at my door step?
I'm feel like i'm so fucking desperate. Fuck. I hate that word. But i think it also sounds ok.
confused. teen. are. so. typical. so. just. shoot. me. *bang*
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
My life
2 more days to physics. Like me, i think bout half
the sec fours are not going to attend school. BUT.
Its all for a good cause (duh!). Like on monday, I'm
going to meet keshia tomorrow onboard SIA. Okay.
LAme. Physics. Chemistry. Gees.
Anyway, my sister tried to be a stuntwoman today.
She rode the bike down a flight of stairs but fell
halfway through. She got hurt of course. Think it
hurts like hell (duh!). You know what? I think I
should stop saying about the obvious. Maybe I
should have said she went to the hospital to treat
her injuries. Imagine the pain she's going through.
Yeah! That's more like it. I think I'm very lame.
Though I still got all my limbs intact. Gees.
Oh!! My brother's butt is very nice to bite!!! Hehe....
also very nice to pinch. hehehehehe..........
I have to admit. I think I'm bit sick.
Anyway, thanks shaun for the cd. songs are weird
though!! haha...by the way, I've already thanked
him earlier on. =D
So. I'm going to watch television. I think.
Whatever.
Later.
the sec fours are not going to attend school. BUT.
Its all for a good cause (duh!). Like on monday, I'm
going to meet keshia tomorrow onboard SIA. Okay.
LAme. Physics. Chemistry. Gees.
Anyway, my sister tried to be a stuntwoman today.
She rode the bike down a flight of stairs but fell
halfway through. She got hurt of course. Think it
hurts like hell (duh!). You know what? I think I
should stop saying about the obvious. Maybe I
should have said she went to the hospital to treat
her injuries. Imagine the pain she's going through.
Yeah! That's more like it. I think I'm very lame.
Though I still got all my limbs intact. Gees.
Oh!! My brother's butt is very nice to bite!!! Hehe....
also very nice to pinch. hehehehehe..........
I have to admit. I think I'm bit sick.
Anyway, thanks shaun for the cd. songs are weird
though!! haha...by the way, I've already thanked
him earlier on. =D
So. I'm going to watch television. I think.
Whatever.
Later.
Monday, September 20, 2004
All by myself
today's english went ok. summary...why oh why
my summary...
*PRAY HARD, CROSS FINGERS AND TOES* please...
i hope i did well nuff for at least a B4.
After that i went to century square to buy comis. bought 2.
Met up with keshia at 2.30 at airport. by the time i reached
the airport i've already finished one of the comics. But think
i'm going to read it again. Not now, la. Obviously. Now the
time is 9.25. Let's see how much more time i will waste.
hehe...
my summary...
*PRAY HARD, CROSS FINGERS AND TOES* please...
i hope i did well nuff for at least a B4.
After that i went to century square to buy comis. bought 2.
Met up with keshia at 2.30 at airport. by the time i reached
the airport i've already finished one of the comics. But think
i'm going to read it again. Not now, la. Obviously. Now the
time is 9.25. Let's see how much more time i will waste.
hehe...
Sunday, September 19, 2004
Pieces
Good luck to everyone in BGSS
taking their prelim eng tomorrow.
And, good luck to me. Shit. I'm
actually going to be very nervous.
!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!
Saturday, September 18, 2004
High and dry
Time...5 was like yesterday. Now I am 16. I feel as if I've grown up too quickly. By the time I was 12 I've already tried falling in and out of "love". I mean not even a quarter of my life had passed and I'd already jilted a guy and thought myself "superior" to other girls who have yet to "try" this experience. What was I thinking?! No wonder I was so proud at that time. Seriously. If you'd knew me back then you'd have disliked me. Thank God for Nicole who'd stuck by me and saw past the proud character to say she liked having me as her friend.
I love you, Nic!!
Same thing for my brother. Growing up too fast I mean. The last time I'd talked to him about his life, he was so depressed, so upset. I was reminded by the fact that he is ONLY 14++. Round up to 15if you wish but in truth he is that. 14. And he's already feeling all these kind of emotions that he'd subjected himself to. Why must we do this to ourselves? My heart was broken by a 21 yr old guy when I was 14, too. I admit, I did that to myself. Though as much I want to regret my stupid decisions, I realise I cannot. There is no use crying over spilt milk.
When I walk on the streets, I see girls who are only 12 acting as if they are 16 or 17. Was I like that, too? I really wonder. Did 16, 17 year olds think as I when they saw my friends and I on the streets back then? Did my mom? Ok. Stupid question. Of course she did. I mean she have 4 kids. I think my da jie is the only one who had a normal childhood. Well...all in all, I hope I'd be able to help my kids have a normal childhood. Without all these things that my sis, bro and i went through.
Also, I realise I can't die just yet. There's too much to accomplish, too much to live for. Thank you God for allowing me to live in the comfort of such great parents and siblings. I know I'm
INCREDIBLY LUCKY
I love you, Nic!!
Same thing for my brother. Growing up too fast I mean. The last time I'd talked to him about his life, he was so depressed, so upset. I was reminded by the fact that he is ONLY 14++. Round up to 15if you wish but in truth he is that. 14. And he's already feeling all these kind of emotions that he'd subjected himself to. Why must we do this to ourselves? My heart was broken by a 21 yr old guy when I was 14, too. I admit, I did that to myself. Though as much I want to regret my stupid decisions, I realise I cannot. There is no use crying over spilt milk.
When I walk on the streets, I see girls who are only 12 acting as if they are 16 or 17. Was I like that, too? I really wonder. Did 16, 17 year olds think as I when they saw my friends and I on the streets back then? Did my mom? Ok. Stupid question. Of course she did. I mean she have 4 kids. I think my da jie is the only one who had a normal childhood. Well...all in all, I hope I'd be able to help my kids have a normal childhood. Without all these things that my sis, bro and i went through.
Also, I realise I can't die just yet. There's too much to accomplish, too much to live for. Thank you God for allowing me to live in the comfort of such great parents and siblings. I know I'm
INCREDIBLY LUCKY
ok. I know I look pretty short here. Don't get mistaken ok!! Im actually only half a head shorter than he is. Ok, was. Now I'm not so sure. This picture was taken last year during my father's birthday. The red t-shirt my brother's wearing is actually a 2002 NDP shirt. haha...The black pants was bought by me. I was SO generous...Now he doesn't even know where the pants is. Sad.
my 4th? 5th? birthday. My brother was "forced" by my sisters, i tink, to kiss me. cuz they thought it was cute...do u think so? back then i was SO vain!!! Look at me!!! So adorned with "jewelleries"...Even though its all plastic. And look!! He's shorter than me!!! HAHA!! That was the only period where I was taller than him. Look at him now. *sigh*
Friday, September 17, 2004
Take my breath away
Today's practical went ok. Though I panicked when I saw
1.0mol/dm(3). I spent a good 20 minutes with a blank mind.
But I managed to finish the rest with a calmness I didn't
know I'd possessed. Lucky.
Well, today is FRIDAY!! i'm quite happy. But monday will
be the start of my prelims. JIA YOU!!! haha....
Everyday i feel the same. Nothing ever happens. Or rather
I'm too lazy to make things happen. Whichever...
Right now it's just me and the ol' cat. Though my brother calls
her Twinkle, which i disagree with, I call her mao mao. Or
sometimes meow meow. Well, i found out yesterday the MOST
effective way to bring her into the kitchen. Just open the fridge
and take out the plastic containing her food. She really ran full
speed into the kitchen. Gees.
One more thing. I dreamt of this guy who looked like Susilo!!!
I have NO IDEA why he appeared in my dream. In my dream
he was my *hem*...boyfriend. It was really weird. Susilo! Of all
other guys. I myself had no inkling that I'd found him attractive.
But after a while he changed into someone else
whom I've got a crush on. I just realised that I've had this
crush for four years. No, it's no longer Johnny. This guy is
a bad person. It's only recently that I knew his "character".
But until I REALLY know this person, I have very mixed feelings
about him. And he probably doesn't even know i exist.
Like Johnny. Not that I'd told Johnny... Seriously. This is bad.
But he is really cute. *sigh*....Teenage girl problems. Typical.
I'm changing the song on my blog. This song is getting a bit
irritating. Sorry Hoobastank. No more can i buy you a drink.
Hope you'll enjoy the so called "new" song I'm going to put up.
Later.
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Dream on
i didn't go school today. but i really did study.
im now taking a break.
well, i hope its enough for tomorrow.
...
better get back to studying.
later.
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
Tangerine dream
had a nice day.but i dont tink i'll be goinin scool
tmr cuz i'd like to study.hope my mom let me.
from now on,i'll write full sentences.hope i'll succeed.
haha.ok.im goin to log off now.STUDY.wat a word.
later.
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Somehow
im goin to a band concert later...
actually i totally forgot bout de whole ting...
well...
tink i deliberately forgotten bout it...
hehe...
ok...will go get ready for de concert noe...
m meetin tiff later at 5.30...
later...
actually i totally forgot bout de whole ting...
well...
tink i deliberately forgotten bout it...
hehe...
ok...will go get ready for de concert noe...
m meetin tiff later at 5.30...
later...
Monday, September 13, 2004
Hear you me
today's practical went ok...
went out after tt...
watched cinderella story...
heard one song tts Very familiar...
but i just dont noe who sang it...
i jus CANT remember!!!
its goes like"....may angels lead u there..."
......
ok...just found out who sang it...
JIMMY EAT WORLD!!!
no wonder...
anyway the story is nice...lead actor IS CUTE!!!
=)
went out after tt...
watched cinderella story...
heard one song tts Very familiar...
but i just dont noe who sang it...
i jus CANT remember!!!
its goes like"....may angels lead u there..."
......
ok...just found out who sang it...
JIMMY EAT WORLD!!!
no wonder...
anyway the story is nice...lead actor IS CUTE!!!
=)
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Can i buy u a drink
ok...got dis quiz from fen's blog...dno whether its true not...im actually a real sucker for dis kinda crap...haha....
You're a Spring. You usually are very close-knit
with your friends and value everyone freidnship
you have. You're a real people person and
everyone loves how friendly you are. You're
good with encouraging people but usually don't
like to be the center of attention. You are a
social butterfly and probably are in several
circles of friends but it's just because you're
well liked and you make people comfortable.
You're both fun and wise but you are very
realistic about life.
What season are you? (pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
You're a Spring. You usually are very close-knit
with your friends and value everyone freidnship
you have. You're a real people person and
everyone loves how friendly you are. You're
good with encouraging people but usually don't
like to be the center of attention. You are a
social butterfly and probably are in several
circles of friends but it's just because you're
well liked and you make people comfortable.
You're both fun and wise but you are very
realistic about life.
What season are you? (pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
Saturday, September 11, 2004
Girls just wanna have fun
haha.....i jus luv de song...hehe....
doug is SO CUTE!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
jus makes me laugh!!!
ok.......
today...i exercised....gees....=)
m on a regime...is tt how u spell it?
anyway...lived like a pig...
oh n i jus changed my skin today...
.......piggy..........
later.....
doug is SO CUTE!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
jus makes me laugh!!!
ok.......
today...i exercised....gees....=)
m on a regime...is tt how u spell it?
anyway...lived like a pig...
oh n i jus changed my skin today...
.......piggy..........
later.....
Friday, September 10, 2004
A life Less Ordinary
ok...de truth is out...
im usin de flip phone..(*gasps*!!!)
ok...
tts all...
later....
im usin de flip phone..(*gasps*!!!)
ok...
tts all...
later....
Thursday, September 09, 2004
Gifts and curses...
ok....so my sis is back...bringin a lot of phones n tings home...
includin one motorola flip phone...my mind is confused...
shld i abandon my old phone for dis newer technology?
gees.....
haha......i tink i shld...
den again...mayb i wnt...
ok...m goin to change my song in my blog first...m lookin
at my choices now...12 stones...REM...goo goo dolls...so
many choices...or back to last days of april?
m very wu liao now...jus finished my zelda game...dint die
at all...YAY!!!haha.....
alrite...bout de studyin business...
i'll tink bout it...
...............................
..............................
*sigh*
.............................
ok....
will type more tmr...
later....
includin one motorola flip phone...my mind is confused...
shld i abandon my old phone for dis newer technology?
gees.....
haha......i tink i shld...
den again...mayb i wnt...
ok...m goin to change my song in my blog first...m lookin
at my choices now...12 stones...REM...goo goo dolls...so
many choices...or back to last days of april?
m very wu liao now...jus finished my zelda game...dint die
at all...YAY!!!haha.....
alrite...bout de studyin business...
i'll tink bout it...
...............................
..............................
*sigh*
.............................
ok....
will type more tmr...
later....
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
eric's song
12 stone's new album is finally out!!
saw it in de stores yesterday...
so's alter bridge n saliva....
too bad i've got NO cash...all de
albums cost like $45-$50!!!wat de hell!!!
nvm...wait for another 3 months...de price will
DEFINATELY go DOWN...hope its goes
down to $16+++....hahaha....
ok...yesterday i wrote some stuff tt
made my sis worry...im sori...i dont
noe wat i was tinkin...but i realy feel
much better after writin de letter to u...
pls dn tink im disgusted at U...cuz tt's nt
wat i meant...
my other sis is comin back from de uk tmr...
m goin to fetch her...in another words...
help carry her luggage...no la...m quite happy
tt she's finally goin to come back...cool...
so...holiday's endin...
......
*sigh*.......
saw it in de stores yesterday...
so's alter bridge n saliva....
too bad i've got NO cash...all de
albums cost like $45-$50!!!wat de hell!!!
nvm...wait for another 3 months...de price will
DEFINATELY go DOWN...hope its goes
down to $16+++....hahaha....
ok...yesterday i wrote some stuff tt
made my sis worry...im sori...i dont
noe wat i was tinkin...but i realy feel
much better after writin de letter to u...
pls dn tink im disgusted at U...cuz tt's nt
wat i meant...
my other sis is comin back from de uk tmr...
m goin to fetch her...in another words...
help carry her luggage...no la...m quite happy
tt she's finally goin to come back...cool...
so...holiday's endin...
......
*sigh*.......
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
Monday, September 06, 2004
Innocent
these photos were taken last time n today...first was with tiff at junction8...second was with yingyu,tiff n wendy at bugis...third n forth was with tiff at jurong pt...fifth was with yiyun n liting at tampines...last was taken today with nad n tiff...
Come what may
took some picture with nad n tiff today...had some fun...m glad tt i went out with dem today....i love u guys!!
From the inside
love...
wat is tt word?
love is selfish...
if u deny it,granted,u r a person in love...
if u tink bout it,any kinda love is selfish...
mother's love...family love...fraternity love...sorority love...
relationship love...
y...is dis so...i hv no idea...
yea...i've been in love before...
if i look back now,i see a selfish person transformed by
dis ting called love...
i neglect EVERYTHING tt was important in my life
before dis love came to me...
i'd never wondered how my family whom i'd neglected felt...
now i noe...
i wonder how my MOM felt...
..............
my heart is heavy...
for many reasons....
sometimes i hv suicidal thoughts...
it's so easy to end my own life...
b a selfish person...
...........
wat is tt word?
love is selfish...
if u deny it,granted,u r a person in love...
if u tink bout it,any kinda love is selfish...
mother's love...family love...fraternity love...sorority love...
relationship love...
y...is dis so...i hv no idea...
yea...i've been in love before...
if i look back now,i see a selfish person transformed by
dis ting called love...
i neglect EVERYTHING tt was important in my life
before dis love came to me...
i'd never wondered how my family whom i'd neglected felt...
now i noe...
i wonder how my MOM felt...
..............
my heart is heavy...
for many reasons....
sometimes i hv suicidal thoughts...
it's so easy to end my own life...
b a selfish person...
...........
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