Reason Why

more pictures! :)


there was this candy shop my sister and i happened to pass by at chatelet, the sort of hang out for young kids like you and i, and we saw jaw dropping candies displayed. wonder if they are edible? haha..

the market. see any veg you recognise?

they even have bread la!


and doggies!!



...and a potted plant. i would really like to know what that would taste like but i was out of cash. sad huh..



wah ha ha!

coooll right.....they even have a full birthday cake and some mini tricycle or something like that. all made of candies. if you're wondering how i could resist from eating the whole shop down...well..i have supernatural powers. haha..

the very very very nice french coffee..with lots of cognac at the last layer. yes you're currently looking at it now.

heaven.


and my sister eating a bite of heaven.

me, wanting to see if im drunk. i think i wasn't la..haha..


below would be the day im leaving paris. went to a church before that.

in the RER.


okay, i didn't take any pictures of my sister and i when i left.

paradise.


dubai airport. if i told you that the time currently in the picture is 715am would you believe me? don't you wish our airport was like this too?

the wonderful food. zoom in to see what i had for desert. *swoon*

the wonderful 4 seats i had ALL to myself. (of course you'll only see 3 la. i was seating on one of it.)


i really had a good time in paris. and..i really really really love travelling. especially with someone i love.


more pictures will be uploaded when my sister is back. :)


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im currently searching for my true feelings and thoughts. trying to find the reason behind all my heartaches and confusion.


im trying to think for myself and yet draw the line of being selfish. once again, it is about perception and how you view the extent of being selfish.


im trying to sort out my feelings. with a lot of difficulty. they're all currently jangled up in one big mess like how your earphone wire likes to do.


IM ONLY 19 FOR GOODNESS' SAKE!! who thinks about these stuff now!!??


have actually taken a day off today to just chill and relax and see how true his theory is about me working is directly proportional to the emo shits im giving. for a moment when i woke up not really caring a shit about anything that's happening now, i believed his theory. but now..it's a different story.


im currently stuck in one mindset.


and im trying not to be sick of myself.


how to make things better? for the both of us?


im scared, nervous, anxious, angry, hurt, confused...and lonely.


what do i want right now?


it is to be happy.


now. how can i achieve that?

sunday bloody sunday

well..here we are again.


have been feeling rotten the whole day. having heart problems.


please dont take that statement literally. im not sick sick.



this movie poster had me rolling in the floor in laughter. haha..seriously..from looking at this poster can you guess what the movie is about?? haha...a bunch of people who are hiking UP the french alps and they are very very tired. so they have called the movie "pur week-end"


*rolls around the floor in laughter*


it's okay if you don't get it. haha...




this is the pompidou. the above 3 pictures that is. it's a famous museum where comtempory arts are housed and appreciated by people who have their art senses kicked into overdrive *laughs hyterically*


haha..okay. that was a private joke.


and yes. that is moi below in my newly bought cheap pair of sunglasses which i lurve.....heh..


haha..couldn't smile widely even if i wanted to. didn't want to spoil my image. haha..

sister and i at the luxemburg palace. this place was built for ONE lady who was not even the queen or anyone important. just the king's consort. those rich bastards..



okay la..at least we can go in there now for free. haha..


now..the Eiffel Tower.


:)

beautiful sister and i went up the tower at around 9pm paris time when it was still bright and early and stayed till it became completely dark at around 10 plus.

paris at 930pm.

paris at 1030pm.

funny how they got every other country's spelling right except ours. but yes, it does pour in singapore.

real or fake you decide. :D


of course it's real!!!!!!! i took it! heh...



goofing around..heh..

the original
the fake
one of the many pictures we took because im a perfectionist. haha..


my sister is coming back! yay! :)


another..16 days more. hang in there girl..


will post more another day :)

take my picture

well..i have a new set of computer. all bought and fully installed today. my mom even bought a memory card reader. hence i can upload my pictures now :)


these pictures i have with me are those on the last leg of my trip - the last 6 days to be exact. heh..


























hmm..think that will be all for today..there are more of course..but if i upload everything today then not exciting already right..heh..

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anyway..on a different level of emotions..im getting really tired. and i think he is too..we can't hold a proper conversation without it ending in a disagreement. maybe disagreement is too light of a word. it should be more of arguments.


i am tired...


of crying..


of feeling angry..


of trying to change my bad ways but find that im probably the only one trying..


of feeling unaccepted..


of arguing over stupid and mindless things that just make me feel damn bloody angry..


...


hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. just wish i can lift myself out of this vicious cycle..i want to go to school and fill up my days with activities such that i won't have time to even think of the stupid things he does that pisses me off. i'll be busy, he'll be busy, we won't have time to meet up and stuff..good! we spend less time arguing and more time cherishing the time we have. i really hope so.


i really hope so..


otherwise i don't know how much longer i can last..


is this how it is supposed to be?


can someone answer me?

We only just begun

by run kid run


You'll have your ups and downs
Don't let them push you out
Cause time is all you've got now


Go make the best of everything you want to be
With ambition pushing forward
Your dreams upon your shoulders


Though impossible it seems
It's time to just believe
From here on out you're just getting older
Pick up yourself you keep getting closer


Let's just get it started tonight
All you've ever wanted its in your eyes
Just let it take you where you want to go
Just let it tell you what you want to know


You've got your destination
Progress has now been made and you
Will see the way you've wanted it to be


We've only just begun
There's gold that lies in us
Your hesitation's held you long enough


Though impossible it seems
It's time to just believe
From here on out you're just getting older
Pick up yourself you keep getting closer


Let's just get it started tonight
All you've ever wanted its in your eyes
Just let it take you where you want to go
Just let it tell you what you want to know


The future holds a brighter day for you
You may ask yourself tonight
Is it out of reach, out of reach,
is it out of reach is it out of reach,
out of reach, or am I? or am I?


Let's just get it started tonight
All you've ever wanted its in your eyes
Just let it take you where you want to go
Just let it tell you what you want to know


Let's just get this started
(where you are tonight)
All you've ever wanted
(its in your eyes)
Just let it take you where you want to go
Just let it tell you what you want to know
Just let it take you where you want to go






yes, im back...since last thursday. haha.. i do want to upload my photos from the trip (took alot..total up to 900plus maybe?) but i have no idea where is my camera wire and most of my pictures are with my sister.


i have already decided which school to go to..surprisingly, it is the same school as what sarah yap has posted on her blog. heh..that's pretty interesting.


i bought lots of clothes from Paris. haha..do go out with me sometime. i will show them off to you. wahahaha..


paris was enjoyable. :) as long as you don't talk to them (unless you speak very fluent french) and mind your own business, paris is a place you can't really get enough of. or maybe it's just the shopping. haha..


the clothes there are 100x nicer. i swear. though i only stayed in paris (for 12 days) and took day trips to see the very beautiful mont st-michel and the french alps, i bought about 300euros worth of things (not all for myself la..) - that's a LOT of money considering that it all came from me (my mom paid for my air ticket, which isn't very much compared to all the other flights, and i had thoroughly enjoyed my in-flight experience). spent about a total of S$2200...which is not a lot if you think about it because i was saved from accomodation and airfare. but it is a lot for me la..spent all my work money and a bit more.


however, it was all well spent ;D


it's been so long since i last blog man..so weird.


will post the pictures up soon. heh..

hello everybody

be be your love

in approximately 5 days and 2 hours from now im going to be flying to france for a trip.


i cant wait.


im glad that fate has played it such that i managed to see 2 loves of my life coincidently, which i can tell you, is VERY rare.


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sometimes i don't know if willie and i can work out in the end. we're both so stubborn.


sigh..


but im going to give this my best shot so...if this relationship between us fails it would just mean that one of us has given up.


life-long learning...so far, i've only gotten one call for interview. i dont know what to expect next month.


general feeling of now is: wu jing da cai.


...


sigh...


slap me please.