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i love that song. for now.


you know, i have to admit something. im addicted to blogging. unless i have something better to occupy my time with la...haha...


i wanted to blog today cuz i wanted to complain about someone. erm. i know im gonna sound like a spoilt brat. but i think this person and i have ABSOLUTELY nothing similar in face features thus conveniently explaining why i dislike this person so much. i just cant figure out what makes me so mad about this person. one reason i can think of is that im jealous of her. that's a reasonable reason. oops. just told the whole world that this person is a she. i really can't tolerate her you know...the way she speaks, laughs, walks, runs, converse, discusses, anything. i don't know why. my limit was reached today during class. somehow i just snapped. i showed my black face. that is something i really SELDOM do in class no matter how upset i am because i believe it's not polite. man..i just remembered that time i was in this meeting and i told the girls that we broke up then she PINCHED my cheeks and was like "oh she's so cute!" i couldn't believe she did it la! it was like totally out of context! also, i dislike people i don't like touching me. especially my face. okay. generally, i dislike people touching my face, let alone pinch it. i mean hello!!! we're no longer primary or secondary school kids! women's face is like super important and sensitive! now i try to stay away from her. i hope i no longer get to be alone with her. very mean of me right...but i figured if i don't like her i shouldn't be such a hypocrite about it. if i don't want to be nice to her i should stop acting like i care. i hope i'll be able to be totally professional about this. fancy im the class chairperson. i really should step down. not doing a good job of bringing the class together. i think it's all bullshit la...all these (as what jan said) class politics. i pledge to remain neutral. my loyalties lies with jan. haha!!


my thumb was trembling involuntarily the whole of today. i haven't got that in such a long time. i wonder if my brain is really fried? i'll like to have it steamed though...more healthy.


i don't know if i've turned into a cynic but there isn't anything in this world worth living for. especially in this stupid country. when you're born, you have your life mapped out for you. fuck that illusion about choice. life is always going to be monotonous no matter how hard you try to make it interesting. all one is going to do is to be educated then work. till you die. what has the world come to? it's the same everywhere. education is becoming more and more stupid and useless. people are getting more and more stupid and gullible, easily bluffed by the governments. everyone is getting more and more materialistic and selfish. what is the world coming to? when will the world end? i think when that time comes i'd rather kill myself than continuing living in this stupid world. even the elderly are SIGNIFICANTLY MORE kiasu than the younger generation. what the fuck la...


sigh........................................


i was born into this world for a reason...just wish i knew what that was...