I miss you

funny how i can be so selfish...is this what really what i am?


i miss him all of a sudden...so much...


sigh...


this sucks.


i wanna grow up soon. i don't want to be stuck in this stage. i want to be more...i don't know. mature? im acting and thinking like a childish six year old.


i want to see what my future is going to be like...


i have so much things to tell him...things only he and i will understand...so pathetic.


what is it that i really want to say? this is one of the reason why keeping it all inside is so much better because no one understands how i feel when i say something. no one will truly understand because they are not me.