rash decisions. something i always do and regret after. loneliness.


i don't know. what is going to happen next? love. am i going to be loved? am i going to be shown love? perhaps i asked too much. lost. like falling into an abyss after letting someone's hand go. did i make the right decision? i really don't know. the phrase "if you let someone go and that person comes back to you, that person is yours" plays in my head but who am i to predict the future? sometimes decisions made can never be unmade.


i love you and i want to be with you but somehow the feeling i get is that you don't want to be with me as much as i want to be with you. perhaps you dont even care whether or not im in your life. but i really dont know. maybe you'll be much happier without this relationship adding on to your stress. your day offs spent more wisely and i will no longer post a problem in your life.


lost. what a word.