run

sigh..at least now i have tried and have failed so i know what i should do next time..hmm.. nevermind.


god will punish those who did harm to others and justice will prevail, someway or another. that's the idealist in me. haha..


now i just have to find a way to let go of my anger.


i have been dreaming alot these days. of people in my past and of people in my present. somehow there's still some part in me that cannot seem to let go of that past and those memories that had meant something. my head and body had since moved on into the future but my heart is still living in the past, so it seems. i wonder what i have to do to finally be able to free myself completely. the hurt and anger and strong emotions still live on, directed unfairly onto a person. perhaps what i need is more time. frankly, who am i kidding? a year is just not enough to get over things. especially when everything is still in close proximity. another reason for nov 17 to come. haha..


i guess with each passing day these emotions will be buried deeper and deeper in my heart till one day i can no longer feel them because they are so far away from my conscious mind. let's hope till that day comes, i never have to see or hear about ac again. sigh..because if i do it just brings me back onto square one of every new phase.


maybe i'll feel better after i publish this post.


tomorrow is a new day! :)