Heard that sound

after a long while of ... 4 weeks?


okay. latest update:


1) My job at Great Eastern will be considered THE job that changed my life.


2) I'll be going Paris to find my sister on the 25th of this month. and i'll be spending ALL my money. SHIT.


3) I'm getting fat. DOUBLE SHIT (though you'll think that after all that shit i've excreted out of my body, i'll be slightly thinner..haha..okay. not funny).


ANYWAY.


i think this trip will make me a better person. yup..this can be considered as a soul-searching trip i guess. BUT all my money will be GONE. freak. i need to find a job that pays me more than $6.50 an hour. seriously, $6 per hour is NOT enough. sigh..


im a little afraid that i will not get a chance to be shortlisted into any Us that i have applied for. i hope this feeling of fear will not get the opportunity to bloom into outright panic.


i want a laptop that surfs the internet!!! this computer is SO troublesome..grr...