Nine Crimes

oh man...


help...


you know, i like damien rice, courtesy of my sister..


would like to take more pictures! wish we had taken more..


anyway..


when we do start over...will we start at gound zero?or will we continue where we left off?


oh man...


shall stop thinking of this kinds of thoughts.


any guys who want me?? anyone?? any guy who's very interested in my character and sincerely wants to know more about me???


haha...just read keshia's blog and she wrote this:


S-A-D = Single And Desperate


haha!! i think im currently in this category..


you know, i always say things to contridict myself. im really trying to curb myself. how?? how?? to stop this problem?? i think im really trying to say what i really think. it's just my thoughts don't have a definate form. they are like water, changing every minute. there's not a time where i really feel strongly about something and will stick to that thought. i think that's bad. this means that i'll be in trouble in the future. that's why when people ask what i think, i have a real big trouble opening my mouth and give what i think. because what i say might not really show how and what i feel about the issue. you know how you have to be careful with words because of the nuances.


which is why i prefer to write down my feelings. which may look to some people as a bit pathetic right..but i really have trouble solidifying my thoughts. i don't know how to think and talk unrashly. argh!! virgo rising clashing with leo sun head on.


wish i can find my balance.


oh man...this damien rice song sounds quite funny. haha...it has lyrics like "i look to my eskimo friend.." and now it has an opera singer singing about eskimos. haha!!! hilarious.


speaking of hilarious, i know im being very mean but it's just so funny!! haha...


the other day at suntec, my sis and i were going home and we were going down the escalator. so there was this woman in front of us. haha....she was wearing this really tight silver spandax 3 quarts which showed the full glory of her bountiful butt.


haha!!!!


it was overflowing man!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!


so bad right...i know..i just felt quite embarassed for her but at the same time, a little admiration for her courage. this woman felt confident of her own body enough to wear something SO DARN tight it looks like she wasn't wearing any pants at all. (sorry for the visual) but... i don't know...perhaps it's because im actually conservative at heart..i think one should only wear clothes which makes one look and feel beautiful. very superficial right...can you see the western influence??haha...now i feel so superficial...opps..wait a minute. i am superficial! haha..don't need to feel.


i want to go taiwan or china again with my family. father included. i miss going around feeling like i truly belong in the family. not that i don't feel like i belong now. i mean...the feeling where you don't have to worry about studies...work...and just enjoy being in a big family. you know...eating, sleeping...doing most of everything together..plus having my dad as the tour guide..it's just very fun..no restrictions like going in a tour group will have. it either that or going on a holiday with only a tour guide and a driver. like what my mom, sis, bro and i had when we went beijing 2 years ago.. oh man...how time passes. 2 years already. feels like yesterday. or last year. but no... last year i fell sick. all the way till school reopened. opps...i fell sick when i went beijing too..haha!! such coincidence. let's hope i'll fall sick this year too!! =D


i miss falling sick. serious.


i have been wondering...if i fall sick during my promos and fail it. it'll be such a waste. i don't want to go poly. but i don't mind going la'selle actually. haha...but i don't have much of a portfolio. in fact, i have none. what are my career choices? forensic science just doesn't hold it's appeal anymore. business??possible...but because i want to rebel from my father, i don't know if i really can do business. don't have that entrepreneur spirit. plus. i don't want to do something that's just full of STUPID THEORIES.


all crap. really. ARGH....


the love-hate relationship of being born in singapore. funny cuz i really don't have the desire to stay in this country. alright. if i stay here for the next twenty years, odds of permantly staying are extremely high. especially if i have kids by then. sigh...also, there are the monetory issues..


argh!!!


sigh...


okay...have vomited my thoughts out for today. starting school in less than 48 hours. *shudders*


okay okay..


later =)