Remember when it rained

yesterday i had lots of fun with my dearest sister singing and grooving along to a couple of bands from her school. quite cool la...can't stand it. there were a few bands who were VERY fantastic. probably much better than that ronin band. much better. seriously.


anyway.


i have a worst fear. i found it today. i hope it never happens. haha...it is not failing promos. i saw something which i thought i wasn't meant to see today and my heart stopped when i thought i saw what i saw. i was numb after that. but when i finally got a closer look i realise it is not what i thought it was and my heart kind of relaxed. well...i think the way im writing it is like so obvious...im the queen of subtlety!!! not!!! haha...


my stomach is killing me man...


today is the 22nd of sept. it has been one month into my 17th year on earth and i don't see anything good happening. is this what the rest of my months of being 17 going to be like??? sigh....what the hell...


i wonder is there a way to communicate without talking. long distance. by "not talking" i mean not communicating through email...sms...morse code...signals...you know...through mediums you can see. well...i tried to communicate today...i focused very hard. but i have no idea if it worked because i had no response. maybe it just means it did not work. haha...or perhaps i didn't focus hard enough. i have no idea what to say too actually. and im actually afraid of the kind of response i'll get. maybe that is what is stopping my communication. hmm....going to try later.


yuck. my feet smells man...can't stand it.


i feel like listening to do as infinity. i miss my cds man...lost. just like that. freask. i don't get it man...my school is really quite small. like shit. there is no place you can hide there. promos are coming to an end!!!!! cant wait!!! still got 20 more days before promos OFFICIALLY ENDS!!! YAY!!! =D


and it has not started yet. haha!!!


im tired of analysing some shit that intelligent people have to say. questions like- explain what the author meant by....Please use your own words as much as possible- are shit man!!! stupid people...have too much time on their hands. why would i even want to analyse what the freask he/she is talking about? then why can't these STUPID MARKERS ANALYSE WHAT I AM SAYING? what qualifies people to give useful quotes? what makes famous people so quotable? rubbish la...stupid people with too much time on their hands. freask the govt. ha! see whether i will get arrested.


freask.


argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


cant stand it.


fear is like a virus. it is never destroyed. it lies just under the surface and it will break free whenever immunity is low. my immunity is currently quite low. emotionally la...wish it was the body kind.


hmm....shall put a basin of clean stagnant water beside my bed and sleep with all my windows open. haha...


i was thinking in the car today. will i die soon because of retribution? will i get to say that i saw the moth on my wall and i saw it blink at me? will i be afraid? actually, i think if is there retribution, dying is too easy. let's cross all my fingers and toes and hope if i get retribution i will die.


what the freask am i talking about. haha...



i have no idea whether im just joking or not. haha...go see this website. haha...very cute.


Everyone has had more sex than me

haha...it's not sexy. swear.


anyway.


going to shoo now...can't stand my feet smell.


dengue fever please come!!!! =D