Numbness for sound

i realise now why it's better that i don't remember my dreams. because whenever i do, it's weird and it puzzles me for quite a while. this morning's dream was so weird. hmm...i realise yesterday that i don't say "i love you" without meaning it. haha...for all this while i was confused because i didn't know when i meant it and when i don't. but the answer is all very simple. i cant say i love you to some people. or perhaps it should be i don't feel like saying it. so when i do feel like saying it and it is of my own free will it means i really do love. haha...


okay. back to my dream. hmm...guess who i dreamt of? i didn't know he'll be appearing even in my dreams. haha...i dreamt that we met somewhere familiar and started talking again. but this familiar place was a place i've never seen before. we started chatting and then...i think...we went out but i was with 2 people. the weirdest thing was that he became yiyun but i still hear his voice talking. okay. explanation here is like shit. but that's all i can remember. it's weird because


1) i didn't know i'll still dream of aug. so what does it mean when i do?
2) why did he turn into yiyun???? does that mean im lesbian and im in love with her?? okay. yiyun, dont freak when you read this okay..haha...because i dont think im in love with you. im straight. i want to be straight. hmm...im still attracted to guys. =D


another shit thing is my tagboard. what's wrong with it?? i cant seem to see it being okay in my com. hmm...so shit.


it's december already.


so bloody fast.


i wonder what will happen to me next year? hmm...should i go suan ming? i feel like leh...any recommendations???


remember to buy me christmas present okay?? hahahahaha...na la...just joking.