okay. some things are cleared up. he didn't run away like i thought he did. he was late for class. i guess we are still thinking about the same thing. it seemed cowardly that he did that. he's not cowardly. i guess.
my feeling of confidence will only be temporary. wait a few days and you'll see me grappling with the truth. but for now, im determined to stay happy! in bout fifty minutes i will be going out with nad.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAD!! =D
Saturday, September 03, 2005
Friday, September 02, 2005
A decade Under The Influence
Today, i was alternating between being extremely happy and extremely sad. i have such extremities. haha...
WHAT am i waiting for? while waiting, im moping around aimlessly, constantly trying not to regret my actions and trying to be strong for myself. is this REALLY worth it?
it suddenly hit me today that i don't know what im waiting for. that happened when i saw him run away from me during bio practical because he was with someone whom i've said i was seriously jealous of yesterday night. well. i was extremely (again) disappointed. i don't know in him or myself. i think he thought i have not seen him yet but i have the moment i stood outside the toilet talking to my sister. and i saw him see me, pick up his bag and run away. from what i wonder? misunderstandings? perhaps i guess. right now i really do feel that this person is much more capable of making him happy than me. plus, this person is tall...what am i driving at? self-pity? haha!!!!i really can't stand myself man...the last few entries have me CONSTANTLY wondering what people will think about me when they read my blog. and so, i've been wondering about the self-pity thing. are you guys iritated already??? =)
after that i was hit by a bout of great depression which i let myself go through...
before that i was in an EXTREMELY (again.haha..) good mood though my heart was down and out. really wondering where all this good mood is coming from. like now, i FEEL GOOD!! haha...
wanna bet that later i won't be able to sleep again like last night? i hope not!
i don't want to waste my messages on you anymore! since you don't want to reply my messages (as expected) and you'd rather run away from me than face me, then what are you worth to me???you didn't even come and talk to me!!!then what the **** were you doing in the classroom when you know im in the lab just a few metres away???and you didn't return me my tj notes. how the **** do you think im going to study???
ha...do i actually want to publish this and say you're worth nothing?....i think i should stop being so impulsive. where's all my logic and sound thinking??? where did all of you go to my wujiwujiwuji??? i know!!! they all went into hiding ever since the EVIL ONE came out and took over the brain!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA..........
now the jedi knights are struggling to keep peace in the O MIGHTY BIG BRAIN and trying to keep the EVIL ONE from taking over the O MIGHTY BIG BRAIN...
(music from star wars) TON TON TON DEN DE-DEN DEN DE-DEN...
haha...clearly shows that music like this can never be written in words by me. bet most of you can't guess what song i was humming in my head??? hahaha!!!
anyway...enough for today. i think i've bitched enough about him. lalala....
write soon. hope later i'll have a VERY peaceful night sleep.
GOOD NIGHT!!!!
may the force be with you...TON TON TON DEN DE-DEN DEN DE-DEN.....
WHAT am i waiting for? while waiting, im moping around aimlessly, constantly trying not to regret my actions and trying to be strong for myself. is this REALLY worth it?
it suddenly hit me today that i don't know what im waiting for. that happened when i saw him run away from me during bio practical because he was with someone whom i've said i was seriously jealous of yesterday night. well. i was extremely (again) disappointed. i don't know in him or myself. i think he thought i have not seen him yet but i have the moment i stood outside the toilet talking to my sister. and i saw him see me, pick up his bag and run away. from what i wonder? misunderstandings? perhaps i guess. right now i really do feel that this person is much more capable of making him happy than me. plus, this person is tall...what am i driving at? self-pity? haha!!!!i really can't stand myself man...the last few entries have me CONSTANTLY wondering what people will think about me when they read my blog. and so, i've been wondering about the self-pity thing. are you guys iritated already??? =)
after that i was hit by a bout of great depression which i let myself go through...
before that i was in an EXTREMELY (again.haha..) good mood though my heart was down and out. really wondering where all this good mood is coming from. like now, i FEEL GOOD!! haha...
wanna bet that later i won't be able to sleep again like last night? i hope not!
i don't want to waste my messages on you anymore! since you don't want to reply my messages (as expected) and you'd rather run away from me than face me, then what are you worth to me???you didn't even come and talk to me!!!then what the **** were you doing in the classroom when you know im in the lab just a few metres away???and you didn't return me my tj notes. how the **** do you think im going to study???
ha...do i actually want to publish this and say you're worth nothing?....i think i should stop being so impulsive. where's all my logic and sound thinking??? where did all of you go to my wujiwujiwuji??? i know!!! they all went into hiding ever since the EVIL ONE came out and took over the brain!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA..........
now the jedi knights are struggling to keep peace in the O MIGHTY BIG BRAIN and trying to keep the EVIL ONE from taking over the O MIGHTY BIG BRAIN...
(music from star wars) TON TON TON DEN DE-DEN DEN DE-DEN...
haha...clearly shows that music like this can never be written in words by me. bet most of you can't guess what song i was humming in my head??? hahaha!!!
anyway...enough for today. i think i've bitched enough about him. lalala....
write soon. hope later i'll have a VERY peaceful night sleep.
GOOD NIGHT!!!!
may the force be with you...TON TON TON DEN DE-DEN DEN DE-DEN.....
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
im an ingrate
what's with the title? im amusing mself. well it's written all over augustine's blog. since i've already taken down his blog link, if u can still remember what's his blog address you can go and read it. yesterday i cried the whole day. when i came home from school, after i woke up from my nap and after i read that entry that was a direct blow to my heart. i guess i deserved that. we did talk at last when he decided to entertain me for a while...and i thought we were back together but not together again. so i msged him when i woke up only to find out that he thinks we haven't and he doesn't believe me. ha...i was so close to tearing again.
he no doubtly feels more freedom with his life (from his blog) and no doubtly feels much more happier.
there's a thin line between self-pity and admitting my mistakes. i really don't know where's that thin line.
i thought, with him in my life i can get through jc life easier cuz this is someone i started jc life with for almost 9 months. im really used to the fact that i can look forward to seeing him after school. it's a comfort, i guess, cuz i've never experienced what's it like to have someone you love in the same school. i decided to delete an entry from my blog because it is very childish and augustine don't shouldn't have read that entry cuz i didn't mean what i said (if he still reads my blog anyway). it was written in anger.
im really trying to move on with my life. i really am. i just feel like i lost an anchor in my life. shows how ingrateful i am right? i did take him for granted. now he doesn't want me anymore. so why am i crying? im the one who shouldn't be crying right?
my sister and my brother came to knock some sense into me. what they said really helped. both of them went through the same thing and both of them got over it. when i say same thing i mean they went through what augustine did and the breakup. is this entry full of self-pity? maybe in a few years i'll know.
i have to be strong for myself.
will write soon.
he no doubtly feels more freedom with his life (from his blog) and no doubtly feels much more happier.
there's a thin line between self-pity and admitting my mistakes. i really don't know where's that thin line.
i thought, with him in my life i can get through jc life easier cuz this is someone i started jc life with for almost 9 months. im really used to the fact that i can look forward to seeing him after school. it's a comfort, i guess, cuz i've never experienced what's it like to have someone you love in the same school. i decided to delete an entry from my blog because it is very childish and augustine don't shouldn't have read that entry cuz i didn't mean what i said (if he still reads my blog anyway). it was written in anger.
im really trying to move on with my life. i really am. i just feel like i lost an anchor in my life. shows how ingrateful i am right? i did take him for granted. now he doesn't want me anymore. so why am i crying? im the one who shouldn't be crying right?
my sister and my brother came to knock some sense into me. what they said really helped. both of them went through the same thing and both of them got over it. when i say same thing i mean they went through what augustine did and the breakup. is this entry full of self-pity? maybe in a few years i'll know.
i have to be strong for myself.
will write soon.
Sunday, August 28, 2005
Enjoy the silence.
i decided to do this cuz i read my erjie's blog and saw that she had badly wanted me to do this. so here goes:
3 names you by:
= wanqi
= woonch
= qi
3 screen names you have had:
= april
= wanqi
= wanqi (dnt act much)
3 physical things you like about yourself:
= my eyes
= my breasts (haha!)
= my....hmm...ears? they're special cuz you dnt get the exact replicate or similar ears with other people.
3 physical things you dnt like about yourself:
= my tummy
= my fat butt
= my fat thighs
3 things that scare you
= scaring myself. that's the worst.
= finding any one of my family members dead
= losing my identity as a woman and as myself
3 of your daily essentials:
= wallet
= handphone
= keys
3 things you're wearing right now:
= my favourite op shirt
= my favourite grey shorts which my sister bought for me
= underwear
3 of your favourite bands or musical artistes:
= taking back sunday
= incubus
= lostprophets
3 of your favourite songs:
= ...slowdance on the inside
= lost and found
= there's no 'I' in the team (all by tbs)
3 things you want in a relationship:
= understanding
= companionship
= love
truth or lie:
= im depressed
= im a virgin
= im a waste of God's resources
3 physical things of the preferred sex that attracts you:
= height. i like tall guys. (>1.8m)
= six pecs
= large eyes with double eyelid
3 of your favourite hobbies:
= listening to music
= reading comics
= not studying and not doing my homework
3 things you want to do badly right now:
= move on and change quickly
= pass promos
= study
3 places you want to go on a vacation:
= indonesia
= laos
= vietnam ( these will change in a few days)
3 things you want to do before you die:
= be good at squash
= at least feel a sense of achievement
= have at least 3 boys
3 ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
= im lazy
= im rough
= i always try to pretend im tough
3 ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
= i think i do look like a girl...right???...haha...
= i have breasts
= i whine (alot)
3 male celeb crushes:
= keanu reeves
= ...
= ... (not a big fan of tv)
3 people that i would like to see to take this quiz now:
= augustine
= God
= my doppelganger
3 names you by:
= wanqi
= woonch
= qi
3 screen names you have had:
= april
= wanqi
= wanqi (dnt act much)
3 physical things you like about yourself:
= my eyes
= my breasts (haha!)
= my....hmm...ears? they're special cuz you dnt get the exact replicate or similar ears with other people.
3 physical things you dnt like about yourself:
= my tummy
= my fat butt
= my fat thighs
3 things that scare you
= scaring myself. that's the worst.
= finding any one of my family members dead
= losing my identity as a woman and as myself
3 of your daily essentials:
= wallet
= handphone
= keys
3 things you're wearing right now:
= my favourite op shirt
= my favourite grey shorts which my sister bought for me
= underwear
3 of your favourite bands or musical artistes:
= taking back sunday
= incubus
= lostprophets
3 of your favourite songs:
= ...slowdance on the inside
= lost and found
= there's no 'I' in the team (all by tbs)
3 things you want in a relationship:
= understanding
= companionship
= love
truth or lie:
= im depressed
= im a virgin
= im a waste of God's resources
3 physical things of the preferred sex that attracts you:
= height. i like tall guys. (>1.8m)
= six pecs
= large eyes with double eyelid
3 of your favourite hobbies:
= listening to music
= reading comics
= not studying and not doing my homework
3 things you want to do badly right now:
= move on and change quickly
= pass promos
= study
3 places you want to go on a vacation:
= indonesia
= laos
= vietnam ( these will change in a few days)
3 things you want to do before you die:
= be good at squash
= at least feel a sense of achievement
= have at least 3 boys
3 ways that you are stereotypically a boy:
= im lazy
= im rough
= i always try to pretend im tough
3 ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
= i think i do look like a girl...right???...haha...
= i have breasts
= i whine (alot)
3 male celeb crushes:
= keanu reeves
= ...
= ... (not a big fan of tv)
3 people that i would like to see to take this quiz now:
= augustine
= God
= my doppelganger
Saturday, August 27, 2005
Your Own Disaster
hi all...
i am 17. don't feel any difference though...
but one thing im sure is that this is definately the awkwardest stage of my life.
yesterday i played squash at jan's house!! really fun.. Thanks jan!!! for introducing this sport to me. i really like it. thinking of getting a squash racket, a squash ball, court shoes...but before i do that i will have to save up and work. think of quitting printscreen after promos. if possible want to join squash. though people might say things like "oh it's so enclosed" blah blah... i really like playing it. now my butt and lower back are aching!! haha...so weak. no stamina. need to exercise man!! miss the f and c training for pe.
anyway...im currently wasting time. sigh.....
okay..blog next time..
oh! the picture is the beach i went to in hualien, taiwan! haha...
later
i am 17. don't feel any difference though...
but one thing im sure is that this is definately the awkwardest stage of my life.
yesterday i played squash at jan's house!! really fun.. Thanks jan!!! for introducing this sport to me. i really like it. thinking of getting a squash racket, a squash ball, court shoes...but before i do that i will have to save up and work. think of quitting printscreen after promos. if possible want to join squash. though people might say things like "oh it's so enclosed" blah blah... i really like playing it. now my butt and lower back are aching!! haha...so weak. no stamina. need to exercise man!! miss the f and c training for pe.
anyway...im currently wasting time. sigh.....
okay..blog next time..
oh! the picture is the beach i went to in hualien, taiwan! haha...
later
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Great Romances of the 20th Century
ha!
yesterday's wonderful dinner for augustine's birthday. this was after dinner already. oh i mean we finished desert and were about to leave. we watched a movie after that. guess what we watched? it was fantastic okay!! regardless of what others say. i absolutely loved it. i saw johnie, my ex-crush yesterday with his (on and off?) girlfriend. feel happy for them.
anyway. this is a message for my dearest:
\i hope u had fun yesterday and that u enjoyed dinner and the movie though the ending of the day sucked. it seems we cannot escape that kind of moments. i love u. happy 17th birthday =)\
alright. he has a blog!! so feel free to visit his blog (i think) !!
later
Thursday, August 04, 2005
Slow dance on the inside
hey baby hey baby hey!!!
haha...im actually not so jolly now.
have you ever felt like you're gonna faint anytime?like you're constantly falling from a high cliff. that kinda feeling is what im getting now. think it's not enough sleep and my body is not able to adapt as quickly to my sleeping habits. but this has never given me any problems before cuz i've never felt this way before. sigh...
yesterday i think i had a nervous breakdown. i felt constantly close to tears the whole day in school. all because that ... mr wee wanted to talk to me. he is my cca teacher. he asked me why i've not been attending meetings and blah blah blah...i was so sian. i didn't want to talk to him. there's filming today for our advertisement. it's for this competition or something at the ned of this year. i feel so tired and just want to go home and sleep. but if i don't go i feel like im not living up to my words. im not as reliable as before.
during bio tutorial yesterday, i told ms foo that i threw my qn 2 tutorial away because it was too messy. she asked if i had a problem and i said yes, im a neat freak. haha...she said that my handwriting was like...so how can i be a neat freak? later in class she talked to me and she said that i shouldn't be so bothered about my writing. i don't know why but when she talked to me about this i felt like crying. pms maybe? it's been 4 days. delayed i mean. stress? can't totally blame it on that right? i didn't use to allow myself to use the stress word on myself. i think i should continue to feel that cuz i just keep falling back to that word whenever i feel tired, whatever. i think i got an F for chem again. okay make that im sure i have a F for my chem test. i didn't really study fro that test. sigh. I DON'T WANNA FAIL PROMOS!!!!!
my relationship with augustine has become strained. i seldom talk to him now and we only go out once a month. he's no longer allowed into my house because my mom dislikes him. i think this has happened largely because of me. i should have done lots of things but i didn't and am still not doing. nowadays i get quite irritated at him. like this morning. it must be because i can't seem to put a smile to my face or something. he saw me and didn't smile too. he asked me what's wrong and i said nothing. then he asked me if i wanted mentose. i said no. he insisted and broke off a bit of it. that was when i got irritated. sigh...............argh!!!!
sometimes i feel like commiting suicide, which is immensly ridiculous.
hope this can all change for the better.
blog more next time.
later.
haha...im actually not so jolly now.
have you ever felt like you're gonna faint anytime?like you're constantly falling from a high cliff. that kinda feeling is what im getting now. think it's not enough sleep and my body is not able to adapt as quickly to my sleeping habits. but this has never given me any problems before cuz i've never felt this way before. sigh...
yesterday i think i had a nervous breakdown. i felt constantly close to tears the whole day in school. all because that ... mr wee wanted to talk to me. he is my cca teacher. he asked me why i've not been attending meetings and blah blah blah...i was so sian. i didn't want to talk to him. there's filming today for our advertisement. it's for this competition or something at the ned of this year. i feel so tired and just want to go home and sleep. but if i don't go i feel like im not living up to my words. im not as reliable as before.
during bio tutorial yesterday, i told ms foo that i threw my qn 2 tutorial away because it was too messy. she asked if i had a problem and i said yes, im a neat freak. haha...she said that my handwriting was like...so how can i be a neat freak? later in class she talked to me and she said that i shouldn't be so bothered about my writing. i don't know why but when she talked to me about this i felt like crying. pms maybe? it's been 4 days. delayed i mean. stress? can't totally blame it on that right? i didn't use to allow myself to use the stress word on myself. i think i should continue to feel that cuz i just keep falling back to that word whenever i feel tired, whatever. i think i got an F for chem again. okay make that im sure i have a F for my chem test. i didn't really study fro that test. sigh. I DON'T WANNA FAIL PROMOS!!!!!
my relationship with augustine has become strained. i seldom talk to him now and we only go out once a month. he's no longer allowed into my house because my mom dislikes him. i think this has happened largely because of me. i should have done lots of things but i didn't and am still not doing. nowadays i get quite irritated at him. like this morning. it must be because i can't seem to put a smile to my face or something. he saw me and didn't smile too. he asked me what's wrong and i said nothing. then he asked me if i wanted mentose. i said no. he insisted and broke off a bit of it. that was when i got irritated. sigh...............argh!!!!
sometimes i feel like commiting suicide, which is immensly ridiculous.
hope this can all change for the better.
blog more next time.
later.
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Number five with a bullet
HEY PEOPLE!!!!
haha...finally felt like updating. okay here are the updates on my life:
1) im stressed.
2) IM SO INTO TAKING BACK SUNDAY
3) I keep seeing this guy in school. ask jan man! right right????jan???
4) I failed my midyears totally. Got a OOFF. haha...
5) Im still with my wonderful boyfriend though we like to quarrel almost everyday of the week. it's kinda like our favourite pastime.
6) Im going out with yiyun this friday cuz it's HER BIRTHDAY!!! YAY!!!
7) On MY birthday, im gonna have 2 CAs. One before school and one after school. yay.
8) my form teacher dislikes me. i can tell. i think. okay. being too paranoid.
9) i dislike my cca. never has it been this bad before. i mean my dislike for any of my ccas. there are only 8 people in it. whoowee.
10) I'm staying back every tues to do math (with the exception of today and next week.)
11) i'm gonna fail my bio test which i had today. sigh...
12) i got very motivated by what my principal Ms Lai said last friday.
13) it's very late.
14) i can't wait for holidays.
okay. more next month or when i feel like blogging. haha...tata...
later.
oh oh!!! i miss u all my wonder friends!!!
oh oh oh!!! i love u dearestsweetiepiewhichtastesandsmellssogood!!!!
haha...finally felt like updating. okay here are the updates on my life:
1) im stressed.
2) IM SO INTO TAKING BACK SUNDAY
3) I keep seeing this guy in school. ask jan man! right right????jan???
4) I failed my midyears totally. Got a OOFF. haha...
5) Im still with my wonderful boyfriend though we like to quarrel almost everyday of the week. it's kinda like our favourite pastime.
6) Im going out with yiyun this friday cuz it's HER BIRTHDAY!!! YAY!!!
7) On MY birthday, im gonna have 2 CAs. One before school and one after school. yay.
8) my form teacher dislikes me. i can tell. i think. okay. being too paranoid.
9) i dislike my cca. never has it been this bad before. i mean my dislike for any of my ccas. there are only 8 people in it. whoowee.
10) I'm staying back every tues to do math (with the exception of today and next week.)
11) i'm gonna fail my bio test which i had today. sigh...
12) i got very motivated by what my principal Ms Lai said last friday.
13) it's very late.
14) i can't wait for holidays.
okay. more next month or when i feel like blogging. haha...tata...
later.
oh oh!!! i miss u all my wonder friends!!!
oh oh oh!!! i love u dearestsweetiepiewhichtastesandsmellssogood!!!!
Friday, June 10, 2005
salted dew
hello its about 1 hour since she left the airport...
im in front of the com now...all tired...
cant wait for you to get back dear.
argh.
argh
argh!
im in front of the com now...all tired...
cant wait for you to get back dear.
argh.
argh
argh!
Slow Dance On The Inside
i'm leaving for taiwan today!!
now the time is 7.47am. We're are leaving home at 10am. know why i'm up so early? because i want to have breakfast with my darling wee cheng!
okay.
i'll miss him so much.
feel free to write to in my blog okay dear?
love u!!
now the time is 7.47am. We're are leaving home at 10am. know why i'm up so early? because i want to have breakfast with my darling wee cheng!
okay.
i'll miss him so much.
feel free to write to in my blog okay dear?
love u!!
Thursday, June 09, 2005
blue and yellow
Surprise!
August here again.its very late in the night.or.early morning.cos i just finished my homework,and looking around.thought i could drop by.
In a while you shall be leaving Singapore.argh!what am i supposed to do?help!
nah la im kidding.i'll make it.i'll make it.
oh yeah, lucid flair's(the band) gonna make it.
what a nice time we had today.other than the part where you stomped off cos i knew too much.wasnt my fault...(shrug) : )
hey...maybe you are playing ps2 now.like yesterday.where you slept so late. and you "will sleep early k?" familiar?havent counted that debt yet. arhaha. you're mine.
ok.
gotta go prepare some stuff.stuff that i know.and you dont.or you would know.
the man
August here again.its very late in the night.or.early morning.cos i just finished my homework,and looking around.thought i could drop by.
In a while you shall be leaving Singapore.argh!what am i supposed to do?help!
nah la im kidding.i'll make it.i'll make it.
oh yeah, lucid flair's(the band) gonna make it.
what a nice time we had today.other than the part where you stomped off cos i knew too much.wasnt my fault...(shrug) : )
hey...maybe you are playing ps2 now.like yesterday.where you slept so late. and you "will sleep early k?" familiar?havent counted that debt yet. arhaha. you're mine.
ok.
gotta go prepare some stuff.stuff that i know.and you dont.or you would know.
the man
Sunday, May 29, 2005
Tell All Your Friends You're So Last Summer
haha...the title which i don't think most people will notice, has nothing to do with august. i want a Taking Back Sunday album (HINT).
Later i'll go refund my wasted tickets for the kylie minouge concert with my dearie. <---sounds so weird. hearing myself call my boyfriend this in public.
anyway. since sunday is the first day of the week, i'll like to quickly reflect on last week.
Last week was the most explosive week of my life. lots of quarrels with my beloved. in fact, we just quarrelled on friday. on charlyn's birthday. okay. let's just say we quarrelled everyday last week except sunday, monday and saturday.
i was teary from tuesday till friday. so much tears. sorry i hurt you my dear. sigh.
hope it'll not happen again till maybe 3 months later?
okay. lunch is ready. can already smell the tempting aroma of fish, soup, duck...
man. can't stand it.
oh!! i wanna say a quick I LOVE YOU GIRLS to the girls in my class! especially to charlyn, steph, jan, cherlyn, gracelyn...okay...all the girls.
later then! =)
Later i'll go refund my wasted tickets for the kylie minouge concert with my dearie. <---sounds so weird. hearing myself call my boyfriend this in public.
anyway. since sunday is the first day of the week, i'll like to quickly reflect on last week.
Last week was the most explosive week of my life. lots of quarrels with my beloved. in fact, we just quarrelled on friday. on charlyn's birthday. okay. let's just say we quarrelled everyday last week except sunday, monday and saturday.
i was teary from tuesday till friday. so much tears. sorry i hurt you my dear. sigh.
hope it'll not happen again till maybe 3 months later?
okay. lunch is ready. can already smell the tempting aroma of fish, soup, duck...
man. can't stand it.
oh!! i wanna say a quick I LOVE YOU GIRLS to the girls in my class! especially to charlyn, steph, jan, cherlyn, gracelyn...okay...all the girls.
later then! =)
Monday, May 23, 2005
Blue and Yellow
hello everyone!!
=)
in quite a good mood now...my father's coming back tonight cuz he needs a vacation. oh the song title is a song by the used. my brother got the song from he's friend and it's really good!!!very nice...
oh i wanna thank wei zheng for writhing in my blog. haha...i realised htat my previous entry sounded so erm...well...i feel like i'm reading a 14 year old girl's blog. man... maybe i'm really like a 14 yr old. haha...
oh!! just now when i was making a drink for my mom, there was a fly irritating me. so i tried to kill it. but when i slammed my hand onto the counter, guess what happened.
MY RING BROKED!!!!!
sigh...i told wei zheng already...he said he'll buy me another ring (:
so sad!!!
okay. i have many unfinished business to do. haha...
procrastinating as usual.
anyway. i realise that i don't really like to type so much. feel like changing my blog skin. maybe i'll do that now.
later
=)
in quite a good mood now...my father's coming back tonight cuz he needs a vacation. oh the song title is a song by the used. my brother got the song from he's friend and it's really good!!!very nice...
oh i wanna thank wei zheng for writhing in my blog. haha...i realised htat my previous entry sounded so erm...well...i feel like i'm reading a 14 year old girl's blog. man... maybe i'm really like a 14 yr old. haha...
oh!! just now when i was making a drink for my mom, there was a fly irritating me. so i tried to kill it. but when i slammed my hand onto the counter, guess what happened.
MY RING BROKED!!!!!
sigh...i told wei zheng already...he said he'll buy me another ring (:
so sad!!!
okay. i have many unfinished business to do. haha...
procrastinating as usual.
anyway. i realise that i don't really like to type so much. feel like changing my blog skin. maybe i'll do that now.
later
Saturday, May 21, 2005
i believe in a thing called love
- there's a change of dimensions:its not Wanqi here>>its augustine.yeah.her boyfriend. :*)
i'm here on request,as she is in the bus on the way to meet up with nicole for a birthday dinner
anyway,this is my first time writing on a blog!yay! i wanna thank her for giving me this chance.in fact,during the times i spent with her, i learnt and tried lots of new things! like chicken innerts. i remember the first time i went to buy chicken rice for her,she wanted this thing called "gian". so i gave her a "huh?" face more twisted than elvis' hair. and she gave me a look of pure alienation.a true gothic motiff. i went to buy her the thing,and saw that gray piece of thing.very wierd.she ate it,i didnt dare.
i really want to thank you,my dear>for what? for every single thing you did for and to me,
and apologize to her family for taking so much of her time away from them.wont do it as much :*(
gotta go!maybe if im allowed to i'll write an entry as large as my affection for her. wait.that cant be possible. there isnt enough memory on the internet to accomodate it.
:)
augustine
Monday, May 02, 2005
Take Me Away
hi everyone.
sorry i took so long to write an entry. right now, im procrastinating. i don't wanna do my home work or study. so here i am wasting my precious seconds and regretting every passing time.
just to have a quick update.
im now taking 4 A level subjects- bio, chem, math, econs. im still with wei zhen. and im really sorry to all my friends whom i've promised to meet up but have yet to do so. im really sorry. time really passes. this is now the 2nd of may. pretty soon it'll be my promos. the deciding factor of my next year.
im failing all my tests at this moment in time. feeling quite fussed up. feel like being left alone. i know i can't just put everything aside and just concentrate on my studies and my relationship but it's just so tempting. right now, wei zhen is the only one that really KNOWS me. and i him. i know it's early but i feel im going to be with him for quite a long time. so far there has yet to be a major quarrel that we cannot overcome. we talk like there's no end. both of us, we're like really fitting. there're so many things that we both like and dislike. we even think alike. perhaps 3 months later when it's over i'll feel like a fool having wrote this, feeling so cocky and sure of my future. but i hope when it is over, i'll not regret every second of being with him.
okay. enough of him. let's go on bout my class. my class is mainly girls. there are 6 boys. i am currently the chairman of the class. or rather, the chairwoman. the class makes me feel like im in a girl's school but it's really fun. right now, im doing most of my things with 2 other girls. they are charlyn and alethea. they're really cool.
alright. now it's 10.15. better get going.
i wanna DIE!!!!!!
right.
later.
sorry i took so long to write an entry. right now, im procrastinating. i don't wanna do my home work or study. so here i am wasting my precious seconds and regretting every passing time.
just to have a quick update.
im now taking 4 A level subjects- bio, chem, math, econs. im still with wei zhen. and im really sorry to all my friends whom i've promised to meet up but have yet to do so. im really sorry. time really passes. this is now the 2nd of may. pretty soon it'll be my promos. the deciding factor of my next year.
im failing all my tests at this moment in time. feeling quite fussed up. feel like being left alone. i know i can't just put everything aside and just concentrate on my studies and my relationship but it's just so tempting. right now, wei zhen is the only one that really KNOWS me. and i him. i know it's early but i feel im going to be with him for quite a long time. so far there has yet to be a major quarrel that we cannot overcome. we talk like there's no end. both of us, we're like really fitting. there're so many things that we both like and dislike. we even think alike. perhaps 3 months later when it's over i'll feel like a fool having wrote this, feeling so cocky and sure of my future. but i hope when it is over, i'll not regret every second of being with him.
okay. enough of him. let's go on bout my class. my class is mainly girls. there are 6 boys. i am currently the chairman of the class. or rather, the chairwoman. the class makes me feel like im in a girl's school but it's really fun. right now, im doing most of my things with 2 other girls. they are charlyn and alethea. they're really cool.
alright. now it's 10.15. better get going.
i wanna DIE!!!!!!
right.
later.
Friday, April 01, 2005
Just My Imagination
augustine's nightmare is in a BIG GREAT DENIAL.
of what?
herself. (no she's not me.)
can't stand it.
i guess that's what u'll get when you're rich, pretty, and living in great luxury.
okay. enoough bitching bout other people. hahaha.........
im gonna stop here. just wanted to write that little thing down. or type rather.
later.
of what?
herself. (no she's not me.)
can't stand it.
i guess that's what u'll get when you're rich, pretty, and living in great luxury.
okay. enoough bitching bout other people. hahaha.........
im gonna stop here. just wanted to write that little thing down. or type rather.
later.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
This Is The Place
i feel like blogging.
is that enough?
haha...
for the past days augustine and i have been hunting for THE perfect shoes. and after going to a lot of places and wasting lots of time together (but plus point is that we get to spend lots of time together), we finally found a shoe that we did not see in the past what 4 days???
it is a pair of converse.
and yes, we decided to be cheesy and had bought the same kind of shoe together.
hope it will not tear easily or something.
*crosses fingers*
my holidays are ENDING!!!!
oh!!this morning, i woke up to do something special. know what???u'll never guess...
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EXERCISE!!!!
haha...learned a bit of technique from augustine. it's quite cool and different to exercise with him. it's erm....motivating? haha...dno my this attitude will last or not...
well....whether or not it'll last, u'll have to stay tuned to another episode of """welcome to my life""".....
haha....
decided to amuse myself. again.
will type more next time.
later.
is that enough?
haha...
for the past days augustine and i have been hunting for THE perfect shoes. and after going to a lot of places and wasting lots of time together (but plus point is that we get to spend lots of time together), we finally found a shoe that we did not see in the past what 4 days???
it is a pair of converse.
and yes, we decided to be cheesy and had bought the same kind of shoe together.
hope it will not tear easily or something.
*crosses fingers*
my holidays are ENDING!!!!
oh!!this morning, i woke up to do something special. know what???u'll never guess...
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EXERCISE!!!!
haha...learned a bit of technique from augustine. it's quite cool and different to exercise with him. it's erm....motivating? haha...dno my this attitude will last or not...
well....whether or not it'll last, u'll have to stay tuned to another episode of """welcome to my life""".....
haha....
decided to amuse myself. again.
will type more next time.
later.
Monday, March 14, 2005
Ridiculous Thoughts
it's been so long since my last entry. i advise people who read my blog to read it every 2 weeks. haha.
two months had passed for me and augustine. it was on the 10th of this month, or every month for that matter. but both of us agreed not to do this monthly sort of celebration. i mean it's sort of dumb right? looking at the days passing would just mean that you don't want the relationship to last.
i spent the day by myself. quite refreshing actually. not once did i feel lonely. i guess everyone needs to be alone sometimes. went to the library to read up bio. planning to go back tomorrow. hopefully in the morning. there's a lot of things to read up on. A LOT. i feel my time catching up on me. but i guess that's the results of not reading everyday. after that i went to parkway parade (i went to the marine parade library) to eat dinner. before i ate, i went to put some money into my account. amazingly, i was brave enough to eat by myself and not feel stupid or anything. think it's only for today. haha....my hidden 'talents/attributes'.
earlier today, i was watching television. caught Oprah. it was an inspiring one hour. today's show was about losing weight. oprah had put four of her colleages on a regime of diet. 12 weeks of boot camp. few rules they have to abide to. 1) exercise every morning and the afternoon. 2) eat a good breakfast. 3) no alcoholic beverages except on christmas, thanksgiving and new year's eve. 4) drink at least 8 cups of water everyday. 5) No eating 2-3 hours before bedtime.
the cut-off time for the last one was 7.30pm. so today, i tried to do that. i left the library at 6.10pm. i would have walked to the library if my feet wasn't killing me. i wore my da jie's shoe and my feet hurt (this is nothing new).
anyway.
my entry isn't gonna be long cuz i feel lazy and would like to go read the lord of the rings vol. one, the fellowship of the ring. and listen to something jazzy.
till next time.
later.
two months had passed for me and augustine. it was on the 10th of this month, or every month for that matter. but both of us agreed not to do this monthly sort of celebration. i mean it's sort of dumb right? looking at the days passing would just mean that you don't want the relationship to last.
i spent the day by myself. quite refreshing actually. not once did i feel lonely. i guess everyone needs to be alone sometimes. went to the library to read up bio. planning to go back tomorrow. hopefully in the morning. there's a lot of things to read up on. A LOT. i feel my time catching up on me. but i guess that's the results of not reading everyday. after that i went to parkway parade (i went to the marine parade library) to eat dinner. before i ate, i went to put some money into my account. amazingly, i was brave enough to eat by myself and not feel stupid or anything. think it's only for today. haha....my hidden 'talents/attributes'.
earlier today, i was watching television. caught Oprah. it was an inspiring one hour. today's show was about losing weight. oprah had put four of her colleages on a regime of diet. 12 weeks of boot camp. few rules they have to abide to. 1) exercise every morning and the afternoon. 2) eat a good breakfast. 3) no alcoholic beverages except on christmas, thanksgiving and new year's eve. 4) drink at least 8 cups of water everyday. 5) No eating 2-3 hours before bedtime.
the cut-off time for the last one was 7.30pm. so today, i tried to do that. i left the library at 6.10pm. i would have walked to the library if my feet wasn't killing me. i wore my da jie's shoe and my feet hurt (this is nothing new).
anyway.
my entry isn't gonna be long cuz i feel lazy and would like to go read the lord of the rings vol. one, the fellowship of the ring. and listen to something jazzy.
till next time.
later.
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Ode to my family
my magic number is...
fourteen.
ha. ha. ha.
i was like crying like mad when i called my mom. cuz i kept thinking my result was going to be 17 and i was actually going to be super disappointed if i really did get 17 so...go figure...
am going to get my new specs later.
and i can't seem to get into the singpass tingy...
nevermind.
will write more next time.
later.
fourteen.
ha. ha. ha.
i was like crying like mad when i called my mom. cuz i kept thinking my result was going to be 17 and i was actually going to be super disappointed if i really did get 17 so...go figure...
am going to get my new specs later.
and i can't seem to get into the singpass tingy...
nevermind.
will write more next time.
later.
Thursday, February 24, 2005
I am Godzilla, You are Japan
okay. actually i was in the midst of writing a long entry when something happened.
one of the hamsters died (don't know if it died on it's own or it was killed) and the skin on the head was gone. it was very bloody.
anyway, that was just a small part of what traumatised me. my brother called me out to see the hamster la. okay. then he asked me to dispose the hamster because i aspire to be a forensic scientist next time. considering that i screamed when i saw the dead hamster, what do you think my reaction was? anyway. i told him we need to feed them. so i took a handful of the food and threw it into the cage. at first, they were scurrying around, finding a space to eat their food. then you know what???
ONE MALE HAMSTER WENT TO PICK AT THE BRAIN OF BLOODY DEAD HAMSTER!!!!!!!!
ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was SO DISGUSTED OKAY!!! my brother and i were screaming like nobody's business. he banged the cage but it refused to move!!!!! it continued for a few more minutes. by then, my mom had finished her bath and she came out to see what we were screaming about.
okay. to cut the long story short, we disposed everything that was in that cage. EVERYTHING.
so guess what happened this morning? if you do the math (that is, if you know how many hamsters we have, which is 8), you'll realise that we have 4 hamster left. but this morning, the mother all the hamsters gave birth to another 4 hamsters. thats quite freaky if you ask me.
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let's change the topic.
yesterday, i was writing about augustine. but i guess i was fated NOT to write about him now. so...
let's see...
studies?
my erjie told me that she heard on the radio (bout an hour ago) that results are coming out on monday. i'm really not sure until i hear it on my own. well. maybe i should just see CNA.
alright.
now i don't feel like writing at all.
ayah. will write next time with my results.
later.
one of the hamsters died (don't know if it died on it's own or it was killed) and the skin on the head was gone. it was very bloody.
anyway, that was just a small part of what traumatised me. my brother called me out to see the hamster la. okay. then he asked me to dispose the hamster because i aspire to be a forensic scientist next time. considering that i screamed when i saw the dead hamster, what do you think my reaction was? anyway. i told him we need to feed them. so i took a handful of the food and threw it into the cage. at first, they were scurrying around, finding a space to eat their food. then you know what???
ONE MALE HAMSTER WENT TO PICK AT THE BRAIN OF BLOODY DEAD HAMSTER!!!!!!!!
ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was SO DISGUSTED OKAY!!! my brother and i were screaming like nobody's business. he banged the cage but it refused to move!!!!! it continued for a few more minutes. by then, my mom had finished her bath and she came out to see what we were screaming about.
okay. to cut the long story short, we disposed everything that was in that cage. EVERYTHING.
so guess what happened this morning? if you do the math (that is, if you know how many hamsters we have, which is 8), you'll realise that we have 4 hamster left. but this morning, the mother all the hamsters gave birth to another 4 hamsters. thats quite freaky if you ask me.
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let's change the topic.
yesterday, i was writing about augustine. but i guess i was fated NOT to write about him now. so...
let's see...
studies?
my erjie told me that she heard on the radio (bout an hour ago) that results are coming out on monday. i'm really not sure until i hear it on my own. well. maybe i should just see CNA.
alright.
now i don't feel like writing at all.
ayah. will write next time with my results.
later.
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Throw Away Your Television
bliss? haha...it has been a very long time since my last entry. augustine met my parents last sunday. this picture above is taken on that day. yesterday was valentine's day, had a nice dinner.
remember during my first entry i said that i'll become very lazy and will blog very little? now is the time. hahahaha...the time has come.
well...maybe if i feel like it, i will write one very long entry. see when la hor...haha...
probably next week?
=D
later then.
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Tear
i am now officially hooked onto RHCP. for now. i just LOVE their song "Tear". Track 12 of the By The Way album. in case you're wondering why i'm home so early, don't. haha...
actually it isn't a good thing that i'm actually at home.
because nad's grannie passed away this morning.
so let's have a one minute of silence for her.
*silence*
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alright.
should i fake a letter or fake a MC? still thinking bout it.
that aside.
Nad!!.....call me anytime u need me ok!!
feel like having a bath now. cat is sleeping near me. RHCP playing loudly. stoning away my time cuz i dont wanna do partial fractions. and redox.
i dont wanna stay in MJ.
feel guilty for not doing work now. so am now going to end here and do my bloody partial fractions and redox....AHHHH!!!!!!
later.
(and i just broke my record!!! only 5 entries last month!!! the fewest entries EVER!!! cool...means i had been very busy...haha...)
actually it isn't a good thing that i'm actually at home.
because nad's grannie passed away this morning.
so let's have a one minute of silence for her.
*silence*
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alright.
should i fake a letter or fake a MC? still thinking bout it.
that aside.
Nad!!.....call me anytime u need me ok!!
feel like having a bath now. cat is sleeping near me. RHCP playing loudly. stoning away my time cuz i dont wanna do partial fractions. and redox.
i dont wanna stay in MJ.
feel guilty for not doing work now. so am now going to end here and do my bloody partial fractions and redox....AHHHH!!!!!!
later.
(and i just broke my record!!! only 5 entries last month!!! the fewest entries EVER!!! cool...means i had been very busy...haha...)
Saturday, January 29, 2005
Room 19
i'm now listening to the song like REAL LOUD. Room 19 by No Use For A Name.
life's been busy. trying to manage my time. need a few weeks more for everything to fall into a routine. sigh...
i miss hanging out with my mom and sis. YES I ACTUALLY CARE BOUT U GUYS OK. just give me time.
being with augustine makes me happy. hanging out with him is SO MUCH DIFFERENT from the last few guys. okay. besides the fact that he's WAY taller than the guys. he seems to be so much more sensible...so much more erm...mature? alright, not really...haha....we are all still a little bit immature. it has been so long since i last blogged. kinda lazy now to even touch the computer. it's like a chore. okay. i don't think i meant that.
really miss yiyun. and nad. and tiffany. and zhiyuan.
i wanna meet up and hang out with them!!!!!
sigh
yesterday during lunch. anita was talking about how this school is not fun AT ALL. that she doesn't even have a social life. i find that i actually agree with her. i mean i dont even have time to meet up with my friends!!!not even after school because all of our days end so late!!!if i can, i think i would go to other schools where the focus is not so much on academics. yeah. i think i would. then again, knowing me, i would probably change my mind last minute or something.
there's a barbeque later at wanying's house later. chicken's with me so i'm gonna take a taxi over. augustine is coming over later to carry the chicken for me. haha...feel so bad.
oh!!
yesterday, there was a collage road race in bedok reservoir. everyone had to run some distance la...girls had to run 3.2km and guys run 4.5km or something. anyway, you know what position i got?
haha...not the top 100 la...not that good.
ONE HUNDRED AND TWELVE!!!!!!!!!
that's like a BIG self achievement!!!!
haha....
am and was very happy. jogged all the way. but i think my jogging is equivalent to walking very fast.
think i'm going to end here.
will write more next week or something.
later
life's been busy. trying to manage my time. need a few weeks more for everything to fall into a routine. sigh...
i miss hanging out with my mom and sis. YES I ACTUALLY CARE BOUT U GUYS OK. just give me time.
being with augustine makes me happy. hanging out with him is SO MUCH DIFFERENT from the last few guys. okay. besides the fact that he's WAY taller than the guys. he seems to be so much more sensible...so much more erm...mature? alright, not really...haha....we are all still a little bit immature. it has been so long since i last blogged. kinda lazy now to even touch the computer. it's like a chore. okay. i don't think i meant that.
really miss yiyun. and nad. and tiffany. and zhiyuan.
i wanna meet up and hang out with them!!!!!
sigh
yesterday during lunch. anita was talking about how this school is not fun AT ALL. that she doesn't even have a social life. i find that i actually agree with her. i mean i dont even have time to meet up with my friends!!!not even after school because all of our days end so late!!!if i can, i think i would go to other schools where the focus is not so much on academics. yeah. i think i would. then again, knowing me, i would probably change my mind last minute or something.
there's a barbeque later at wanying's house later. chicken's with me so i'm gonna take a taxi over. augustine is coming over later to carry the chicken for me. haha...feel so bad.
oh!!
yesterday, there was a collage road race in bedok reservoir. everyone had to run some distance la...girls had to run 3.2km and guys run 4.5km or something. anyway, you know what position i got?
haha...not the top 100 la...not that good.
ONE HUNDRED AND TWELVE!!!!!!!!!
that's like a BIG self achievement!!!!
haha....
am and was very happy. jogged all the way. but i think my jogging is equivalent to walking very fast.
think i'm going to end here.
will write more next week or something.
later
Saturday, January 22, 2005
Burn Burn
AT LAST!!! just changed my blogskin. this time i didn't add anything much. very lazy. anyway.
can't believe my player doesn't anymore!!! so irratating!!!i want lostprophets' music in my blog!!!!for my own entertainment (duh!!). *sigh*
augustine forgot about me wanting to fly kite (erm...literary alrigt...haha...). am quite disappointed cuz i wanted to do that during this weekend since last weekend (go figure) and well...i'm not going to meet him today nor tomorrow and sundays will not be touched (reserved for my mom) and every saturdays from next week onwards will be his jamming days so when am i actually going to touch a kite again?or have him to myself for that matter. it's as if he's in NS man...haha...even though we're in the same school we can practically be in diff school cuz he's in arts im in science. his combi is hist/lit/econs. he's not taking math at all. not even AO math.
our recesses and lunches clash (except for tuesday's recess and friday's 1 period of lunch. i finish at 12.30 pn fridays and he finishes at 5.30. how clashing can you get?).
i can understand why he quote"totally forgot about it"unquote. he's got things on his mind...well....
so tt's the update for now...
will write/type more next time.
later
can't believe my player doesn't anymore!!! so irratating!!!i want lostprophets' music in my blog!!!!for my own entertainment (duh!!). *sigh*
augustine forgot about me wanting to fly kite (erm...literary alrigt...haha...). am quite disappointed cuz i wanted to do that during this weekend since last weekend (go figure) and well...i'm not going to meet him today nor tomorrow and sundays will not be touched (reserved for my mom) and every saturdays from next week onwards will be his jamming days so when am i actually going to touch a kite again?or have him to myself for that matter. it's as if he's in NS man...haha...even though we're in the same school we can practically be in diff school cuz he's in arts im in science. his combi is hist/lit/econs. he's not taking math at all. not even AO math.
our recesses and lunches clash (except for tuesday's recess and friday's 1 period of lunch. i finish at 12.30 pn fridays and he finishes at 5.30. how clashing can you get?).
i can understand why he quote"totally forgot about it"unquote. he's got things on his mind...well....
so tt's the update for now...
will write/type more next time.
later
Thursday, January 20, 2005
You Broke Another Mirror You're Turning Into Something You Are Not
i'm attached. to this wonderful guy whose name is augustine. just hope it won't be like my pasts relationships. he's also 16, also a leo, and best of all, loves reading.
school's great. just need time to get used to the life.
i just piggy-ly downed 3/4 of a bag of potato chips. i wanted to pamper myself. so yeah. feel like a glutton now. one of the 7 sins. anyway, do you know last time (i.e., 2 years ago) my motto was "i live to eat"? well now very obviously i cant do that.
time is passing so fast...
school's great. just need time to get used to the life.
i just piggy-ly downed 3/4 of a bag of potato chips. i wanted to pamper myself. so yeah. feel like a glutton now. one of the 7 sins. anyway, do you know last time (i.e., 2 years ago) my motto was "i live to eat"? well now very obviously i cant do that.
time is passing so fast...
Friday, January 14, 2005
To Hell We Ride
hey hey...have been a few days since my last entry..
am now in school. the library. using their free internet. haha. sitting right next to me is jussy. say hi jus. jus, "hi". alright...lame i know. anyway. my last lecture was chemistry. VERY boring. but interesting. at the same time. i'm now at the moment not writing/typing in constructive sentences for only one reason. my mind is in a state of confusion.
next period is meet your civics tutor. my class is S214. the past week of lectures have been like sinking in the pacific ocean. i'm struggling to keep my head above the waters to keep from drowning. or i can also describe the experience as overeating. i swallowed one too many different sorts of sushi and they have filled up the whole column my oesophagus. though digestion is still in process, i feel like vomiting. yeah. i think that's more appropriate.
mathematices is boring. biology is like sake sushi. or maybe not. its like i'm hearing everything, writing everything down, but my mind is blank.
have to keep my future in. FORENSIC SCIENCE!!!!!!
*sigh*
am going to stop writing now.
later.
am now in school. the library. using their free internet. haha. sitting right next to me is jussy. say hi jus. jus, "hi". alright...lame i know. anyway. my last lecture was chemistry. VERY boring. but interesting. at the same time. i'm now at the moment not writing/typing in constructive sentences for only one reason. my mind is in a state of confusion.
next period is meet your civics tutor. my class is S214. the past week of lectures have been like sinking in the pacific ocean. i'm struggling to keep my head above the waters to keep from drowning. or i can also describe the experience as overeating. i swallowed one too many different sorts of sushi and they have filled up the whole column my oesophagus. though digestion is still in process, i feel like vomiting. yeah. i think that's more appropriate.
mathematices is boring. biology is like sake sushi. or maybe not. its like i'm hearing everything, writing everything down, but my mind is blank.
have to keep my future in. FORENSIC SCIENCE!!!!!!
*sigh*
am going to stop writing now.
later.
Saturday, January 08, 2005
Last summer
a week(or perhaps just 5 days) has since past from the first day i stepped into meridian junior college. the past 5 days had been fun. orientation all the way. in this five days i have made friends with most of the people in my OG. one of them is jussy. haha....her name is actually jeslin. but jussy seems pretty cool huh? haha...
i have a crush on someone too =). though i will never tell who...just give me a few more weeks to get rid of this feeling. i got in to combi i wanted, which is chem/bio/math. cant wait to start lessons and see how the teachers are like. i mean they seem very different from my school's teachers (quite obvious la...but still).
the first day of school was just an introduction to the school blah blah blah...the second day was the ice-breaker. the third was the know your college day..you know...run around the school...on thursday was the magnificent meridian marathon. like the amazing race, run round pasir ris, tampines, simei and bedok. very fun. on friday was the water games and campfire. campfire was bit...but yea...someone from my OG thought i cried cuz our item wasn't very successful. very sweet of him cuz he called to ask if i was alright. i didn't cry. i wasnt VERY disappointed. just a little..they had probably mistook my actions when i leaned on jussy's shoulder and started hitting her..haha....was pretty tired and bored. well you would know when i wanna cry. it's highly obvious. nose and eyes will be red and wet. no hiding from anything. haha...but in the first place i would never cry in public. not if i can help it. No No.
right moving on.
woke up at ten today. went library. borrowed 2 books, excluding the one i reserved, which i collected today. i also have one more book in my room, right beside my bed lying page down on the floor, opened to where i had last read it. which was early this morning. okay...i'm apparently babbling.
feel like changing the skin of mu bolg but am very lazy and i feel quite woozy from the medicine i just took. i went to the doctors after i ate lunch after i went library. bill is so damned bloody expensive. but i guess its worth it. your health is more important than $$$. but that is only when you have some $$$.
babblings aside, i think i'll now go drink some H2O and go to sleep. yes, i am a new century pig. NCP. and i am going to stop now.
later
i have a crush on someone too =). though i will never tell who...just give me a few more weeks to get rid of this feeling. i got in to combi i wanted, which is chem/bio/math. cant wait to start lessons and see how the teachers are like. i mean they seem very different from my school's teachers (quite obvious la...but still).
the first day of school was just an introduction to the school blah blah blah...the second day was the ice-breaker. the third was the know your college day..you know...run around the school...on thursday was the magnificent meridian marathon. like the amazing race, run round pasir ris, tampines, simei and bedok. very fun. on friday was the water games and campfire. campfire was bit...but yea...someone from my OG thought i cried cuz our item wasn't very successful. very sweet of him cuz he called to ask if i was alright. i didn't cry. i wasnt VERY disappointed. just a little..they had probably mistook my actions when i leaned on jussy's shoulder and started hitting her..haha....was pretty tired and bored. well you would know when i wanna cry. it's highly obvious. nose and eyes will be red and wet. no hiding from anything. haha...but in the first place i would never cry in public. not if i can help it. No No.
right moving on.
woke up at ten today. went library. borrowed 2 books, excluding the one i reserved, which i collected today. i also have one more book in my room, right beside my bed lying page down on the floor, opened to where i had last read it. which was early this morning. okay...i'm apparently babbling.
feel like changing the skin of mu bolg but am very lazy and i feel quite woozy from the medicine i just took. i went to the doctors after i ate lunch after i went library. bill is so damned bloody expensive. but i guess its worth it. your health is more important than $$$. but that is only when you have some $$$.
babblings aside, i think i'll now go drink some H2O and go to sleep. yes, i am a new century pig. NCP. and i am going to stop now.
later
Sunday, January 02, 2005
To Hell We Ride
tomorrow is a new school day and i'm a bit apprehensive. you know...just like the first day of secondary school (i don't remember my first day of primary school. all i remembered was sitting down in the wrong arrangement and arthur was the first person i met in the school when he said, "Oi!! yiou have to sit behind!!!".)
anyway. i met nic on wednesday and though she was very obviously tired (training in the morning till late 2++), she (in my opinion, of course) was quite insensitive. she said some very insensitive remarks which made me feel quite upset about. we met up for early dinner in sakae sushi in the airport as she has to work later. it was a buffet so it was relatively cheaper. after we ate about 9 plates each, i said to her that i was quite full and i might be able to eat more. she said " wanqi, next time if you're not going to eat in a buffet don't ask me to come with you okay?". AS IF I JUST WANTED TO EAT!!! why would i stuff my myself till my food filled all my oesophagus? i just wanted to spend some time with my bestfriend before the year passes and also to give her the christmas gift. she said it a few times before i tried to explain to her that her saying these would hurt me (i was trying to find words to say without sounding like a drama queen). at last i said," nic, i didn't just come here to eat okay? i just wanted to spend some time with you. i mean when was the last time we met? i think it was at the beginning of the month! we had hardly met up at all!", she reminded me that i went to her house to play ps2 two weeks ago. TWO WEEKS!! i didn't even stay over at her house once in this longest holiday in my lifE!!! i don't know why but she has become so flippant about things that are important to me. guess she's just tired. she's going to nanyang jc tomorrow. she's entering there because she's very good at canoeing. well, good luck to her then. i'll msg her later.
the next day i met up with tiffany. we went orchard. you know what? i think i have pms or something because there was one moment where i was very upset for a moment. i was upset cuz tiffany was browsing through my phone (looking at pictures) and when she saw a picture of herself she automatically deleted without asking me first!!! sigh...saying this make me feel pissed all over again. why was i pissed?
1) she didn't ask me first. i mean who's phone was she holding? who does she think she is?
2) i like the picture cuz it was a candid one where she didn't pose and it held her real smile.
3) she thought it wouldn't make me angry or whatsoever. is she so self-conscience that she can't spare a thought about how i'd feel?
i guess it all boils down to her asking for my permission first. why doesn't the people whom i consider as my close friends care about my feelings at all? okay. this is self-pity. right. i'm grateful for yiyun. she's a person who will go the extra mile for a friend. kind of like me. nad, too. i mean i'm grateful for her too. in my secondary school life, i considered 5 people my (own)really close friends. tiffany, zhi yuan, nic, nad and yiyun (we're not a group of friends). i guess i shouldn't really take these things to heart. i mean, there's always jc to look forward to. and i can always meet up with yiyun or nad.
alright. moving on.
my sisters and i donated some clothes and canned food to sri lanka. really hope these things are helpful.
yesterday, we had a family lunch again. was pretty good. i think the next time my mom cooks again will be next month (reunion dinner).
erm my broher wants to talk to me. will write tomorrow or someday next week.
later.
oh and before i forgot. thanks to yiyun, liting, sook yee, christina and jeanie for inviting me to their steamboat dinner yesterday at the chalet. it was very nice. =)
anyway. i met nic on wednesday and though she was very obviously tired (training in the morning till late 2++), she (in my opinion, of course) was quite insensitive. she said some very insensitive remarks which made me feel quite upset about. we met up for early dinner in sakae sushi in the airport as she has to work later. it was a buffet so it was relatively cheaper. after we ate about 9 plates each, i said to her that i was quite full and i might be able to eat more. she said " wanqi, next time if you're not going to eat in a buffet don't ask me to come with you okay?". AS IF I JUST WANTED TO EAT!!! why would i stuff my myself till my food filled all my oesophagus? i just wanted to spend some time with my bestfriend before the year passes and also to give her the christmas gift. she said it a few times before i tried to explain to her that her saying these would hurt me (i was trying to find words to say without sounding like a drama queen). at last i said," nic, i didn't just come here to eat okay? i just wanted to spend some time with you. i mean when was the last time we met? i think it was at the beginning of the month! we had hardly met up at all!", she reminded me that i went to her house to play ps2 two weeks ago. TWO WEEKS!! i didn't even stay over at her house once in this longest holiday in my lifE!!! i don't know why but she has become so flippant about things that are important to me. guess she's just tired. she's going to nanyang jc tomorrow. she's entering there because she's very good at canoeing. well, good luck to her then. i'll msg her later.
the next day i met up with tiffany. we went orchard. you know what? i think i have pms or something because there was one moment where i was very upset for a moment. i was upset cuz tiffany was browsing through my phone (looking at pictures) and when she saw a picture of herself she automatically deleted without asking me first!!! sigh...saying this make me feel pissed all over again. why was i pissed?
1) she didn't ask me first. i mean who's phone was she holding? who does she think she is?
2) i like the picture cuz it was a candid one where she didn't pose and it held her real smile.
3) she thought it wouldn't make me angry or whatsoever. is she so self-conscience that she can't spare a thought about how i'd feel?
i guess it all boils down to her asking for my permission first. why doesn't the people whom i consider as my close friends care about my feelings at all? okay. this is self-pity. right. i'm grateful for yiyun. she's a person who will go the extra mile for a friend. kind of like me. nad, too. i mean i'm grateful for her too. in my secondary school life, i considered 5 people my (own)really close friends. tiffany, zhi yuan, nic, nad and yiyun (we're not a group of friends). i guess i shouldn't really take these things to heart. i mean, there's always jc to look forward to. and i can always meet up with yiyun or nad.
alright. moving on.
my sisters and i donated some clothes and canned food to sri lanka. really hope these things are helpful.
yesterday, we had a family lunch again. was pretty good. i think the next time my mom cooks again will be next month (reunion dinner).
erm my broher wants to talk to me. will write tomorrow or someday next week.
later.
oh and before i forgot. thanks to yiyun, liting, sook yee, christina and jeanie for inviting me to their steamboat dinner yesterday at the chalet. it was very nice. =)
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