This Is The Place

i feel like blogging.

is that enough?

haha...

for the past days augustine and i have been hunting for THE perfect shoes. and after going to a lot of places and wasting lots of time together (but plus point is that we get to spend lots of time together), we finally found a shoe that we did not see in the past what 4 days???

it is a pair of converse.

and yes, we decided to be cheesy and had bought the same kind of shoe together.

hope it will not tear easily or something.

*crosses fingers*

my holidays are ENDING!!!!

oh!!this morning, i woke up to do something special. know what???u'll never guess...
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EXERCISE!!!!

haha...learned a bit of technique from augustine. it's quite cool and different to exercise with him. it's erm....motivating? haha...dno my this attitude will last or not...

well....whether or not it'll last, u'll have to stay tuned to another episode of """welcome to my life""".....

haha....

decided to amuse myself. again.

will type more next time.

later.

Ridiculous Thoughts

it's been so long since my last entry. i advise people who read my blog to read it every 2 weeks. haha.

two months had passed for me and augustine. it was on the 10th of this month, or every month for that matter. but both of us agreed not to do this monthly sort of celebration. i mean it's sort of dumb right? looking at the days passing would just mean that you don't want the relationship to last.

i spent the day by myself. quite refreshing actually. not once did i feel lonely. i guess everyone needs to be alone sometimes. went to the library to read up bio. planning to go back tomorrow. hopefully in the morning. there's a lot of things to read up on. A LOT. i feel my time catching up on me. but i guess that's the results of not reading everyday. after that i went to parkway parade (i went to the marine parade library) to eat dinner. before i ate, i went to put some money into my account. amazingly, i was brave enough to eat by myself and not feel stupid or anything. think it's only for today. haha....my hidden 'talents/attributes'.

earlier today, i was watching television. caught Oprah. it was an inspiring one hour. today's show was about losing weight. oprah had put four of her colleages on a regime of diet. 12 weeks of boot camp. few rules they have to abide to. 1) exercise every morning and the afternoon. 2) eat a good breakfast. 3) no alcoholic beverages except on christmas, thanksgiving and new year's eve. 4) drink at least 8 cups of water everyday. 5) No eating 2-3 hours before bedtime.

the cut-off time for the last one was 7.30pm. so today, i tried to do that. i left the library at 6.10pm. i would have walked to the library if my feet wasn't killing me. i wore my da jie's shoe and my feet hurt (this is nothing new).

anyway.

my entry isn't gonna be long cuz i feel lazy and would like to go read the lord of the rings vol. one, the fellowship of the ring. and listen to something jazzy.

till next time.

later.

Ode to my family

my magic number is...













fourteen.













ha. ha. ha.

i was like crying like mad when i called my mom. cuz i kept thinking my result was going to be 17 and i was actually going to be super disappointed if i really did get 17 so...go figure...

am going to get my new specs later.

and i can't seem to get into the singpass tingy...

nevermind.

will write more next time.

later.

I am Godzilla, You are Japan

okay. actually i was in the midst of writing a long entry when something happened.

one of the hamsters died (don't know if it died on it's own or it was killed) and the skin on the head was gone. it was very bloody.

anyway, that was just a small part of what traumatised me. my brother called me out to see the hamster la. okay. then he asked me to dispose the hamster because i aspire to be a forensic scientist next time. considering that i screamed when i saw the dead hamster, what do you think my reaction was? anyway. i told him we need to feed them. so i took a handful of the food and threw it into the cage. at first, they were scurrying around, finding a space to eat their food. then you know what???

ONE MALE HAMSTER WENT TO PICK AT THE BRAIN OF BLOODY DEAD HAMSTER!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was SO DISGUSTED OKAY!!! my brother and i were screaming like nobody's business. he banged the cage but it refused to move!!!!! it continued for a few more minutes. by then, my mom had finished her bath and she came out to see what we were screaming about.

okay. to cut the long story short, we disposed everything that was in that cage. EVERYTHING.

so guess what happened this morning? if you do the math (that is, if you know how many hamsters we have, which is 8), you'll realise that we have 4 hamster left. but this morning, the mother all the hamsters gave birth to another 4 hamsters. thats quite freaky if you ask me.
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let's change the topic.

yesterday, i was writing about augustine. but i guess i was fated NOT to write about him now. so...

let's see...

studies?

my erjie told me that she heard on the radio (bout an hour ago) that results are coming out on monday. i'm really not sure until i hear it on my own. well. maybe i should just see CNA.

alright.

now i don't feel like writing at all.

ayah. will write next time with my results.

later.

Throw Away Your Television

bliss? haha...it has been a very long time since my last entry. augustine met my parents last sunday. this picture above is taken on that day. yesterday was valentine's day, had a nice dinner.

remember during my first entry i said that i'll become very lazy and will blog very little? now is the time. hahahaha...the time has come.

well...maybe if i feel like it, i will write one very long entry. see when la hor...haha...

probably next week?

=D

later then.

Tear

i am now officially hooked onto RHCP. for now. i just LOVE their song "Tear". Track 12 of the By The Way album. in case you're wondering why i'm home so early, don't. haha...

actually it isn't a good thing that i'm actually at home.

because nad's grannie passed away this morning.

so let's have a one minute of silence for her.

*silence*

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alright.

should i fake a letter or fake a MC? still thinking bout it.

that aside.

Nad!!.....call me anytime u need me ok!!

feel like having a bath now. cat is sleeping near me. RHCP playing loudly. stoning away my time cuz i dont wanna do partial fractions. and redox.

i dont wanna stay in MJ.

feel guilty for not doing work now. so am now going to end here and do my bloody partial fractions and redox....AHHHH!!!!!!

later.




(and i just broke my record!!! only 5 entries last month!!! the fewest entries EVER!!! cool...means i had been very busy...haha...)

Room 19

i'm now listening to the song like REAL LOUD. Room 19 by No Use For A Name.

life's been busy. trying to manage my time. need a few weeks more for everything to fall into a routine. sigh...

i miss hanging out with my mom and sis. YES I ACTUALLY CARE BOUT U GUYS OK. just give me time.

being with augustine makes me happy. hanging out with him is SO MUCH DIFFERENT from the last few guys. okay. besides the fact that he's WAY taller than the guys. he seems to be so much more sensible...so much more erm...mature? alright, not really...haha....we are all still a little bit immature. it has been so long since i last blogged. kinda lazy now to even touch the computer. it's like a chore. okay. i don't think i meant that.

really miss yiyun. and nad. and tiffany. and zhiyuan.

i wanna meet up and hang out with them!!!!!

sigh

yesterday during lunch. anita was talking about how this school is not fun AT ALL. that she doesn't even have a social life. i find that i actually agree with her. i mean i dont even have time to meet up with my friends!!!not even after school because all of our days end so late!!!if i can, i think i would go to other schools where the focus is not so much on academics. yeah. i think i would. then again, knowing me, i would probably change my mind last minute or something.

there's a barbeque later at wanying's house later. chicken's with me so i'm gonna take a taxi over. augustine is coming over later to carry the chicken for me. haha...feel so bad.

oh!!

yesterday, there was a collage road race in bedok reservoir. everyone had to run some distance la...girls had to run 3.2km and guys run 4.5km or something. anyway, you know what position i got?

haha...not the top 100 la...not that good.

ONE HUNDRED AND TWELVE!!!!!!!!!

that's like a BIG self achievement!!!!

haha....

am and was very happy. jogged all the way. but i think my jogging is equivalent to walking very fast.

think i'm going to end here.

will write more next week or something.

later

Burn Burn

AT LAST!!! just changed my blogskin. this time i didn't add anything much. very lazy. anyway.

can't believe my player doesn't anymore!!! so irratating!!!i want lostprophets' music in my blog!!!!for my own entertainment (duh!!). *sigh*

augustine forgot about me wanting to fly kite (erm...literary alrigt...haha...). am quite disappointed cuz i wanted to do that during this weekend since last weekend (go figure) and well...i'm not going to meet him today nor tomorrow and sundays will not be touched (reserved for my mom) and every saturdays from next week onwards will be his jamming days so when am i actually going to touch a kite again?or have him to myself for that matter. it's as if he's in NS man...haha...even though we're in the same school we can practically be in diff school cuz he's in arts im in science. his combi is hist/lit/econs. he's not taking math at all. not even AO math.

our recesses and lunches clash (except for tuesday's recess and friday's 1 period of lunch. i finish at 12.30 pn fridays and he finishes at 5.30. how clashing can you get?).

i can understand why he quote"totally forgot about it"unquote. he's got things on his mind...well....

so tt's the update for now...

will write/type more next time.

later

You Broke Another Mirror You're Turning Into Something You Are Not

i'm attached. to this wonderful guy whose name is augustine. just hope it won't be like my pasts relationships. he's also 16, also a leo, and best of all, loves reading.


school's great. just need time to get used to the life.


i just piggy-ly downed 3/4 of a bag of potato chips. i wanted to pamper myself. so yeah. feel like a glutton now. one of the 7 sins. anyway, do you know last time (i.e., 2 years ago) my motto was "i live to eat"? well now very obviously i cant do that.


time is passing so fast...

To Hell We Ride

hey hey...have been a few days since my last entry..


am now in school. the library. using their free internet. haha. sitting right next to me is jussy. say hi jus. jus, "hi". alright...lame i know. anyway. my last lecture was chemistry. VERY boring. but interesting. at the same time. i'm now at the moment not writing/typing in constructive sentences for only one reason. my mind is in a state of confusion.


next period is meet your civics tutor. my class is S214. the past week of lectures have been like sinking in the pacific ocean. i'm struggling to keep my head above the waters to keep from drowning. or i can also describe the experience as overeating. i swallowed one too many different sorts of sushi and they have filled up the whole column my oesophagus. though digestion is still in process, i feel like vomiting. yeah. i think that's more appropriate.


mathematices is boring. biology is like sake sushi. or maybe not. its like i'm hearing everything, writing everything down, but my mind is blank.


have to keep my future in. FORENSIC SCIENCE!!!!!!


*sigh*


am going to stop writing now.


later.

Last summer

a week(or perhaps just 5 days) has since past from the first day i stepped into meridian junior college. the past 5 days had been fun. orientation all the way. in this five days i have made friends with most of the people in my OG. one of them is jussy. haha....her name is actually jeslin. but jussy seems pretty cool huh? haha...


i have a crush on someone too =). though i will never tell who...just give me a few more weeks to get rid of this feeling. i got in to combi i wanted, which is chem/bio/math. cant wait to start lessons and see how the teachers are like. i mean they seem very different from my school's teachers (quite obvious la...but still).


the first day of school was just an introduction to the school blah blah blah...the second day was the ice-breaker. the third was the know your college day..you know...run around the school...on thursday was the magnificent meridian marathon. like the amazing race, run round pasir ris, tampines, simei and bedok. very fun. on friday was the water games and campfire. campfire was bit...but yea...someone from my OG thought i cried cuz our item wasn't very successful. very sweet of him cuz he called to ask if i was alright. i didn't cry. i wasnt VERY disappointed. just a little..they had probably mistook my actions when i leaned on jussy's shoulder and started hitting her..haha....was pretty tired and bored. well you would know when i wanna cry. it's highly obvious. nose and eyes will be red and wet. no hiding from anything. haha...but in the first place i would never cry in public. not if i can help it. No No.


right moving on.


woke up at ten today. went library. borrowed 2 books, excluding the one i reserved, which i collected today. i also have one more book in my room, right beside my bed lying page down on the floor, opened to where i had last read it. which was early this morning. okay...i'm apparently babbling.


feel like changing the skin of mu bolg but am very lazy and i feel quite woozy from the medicine i just took. i went to the doctors after i ate lunch after i went library. bill is so damned bloody expensive. but i guess its worth it. your health is more important than $$$. but that is only when you have some $$$.


babblings aside, i think i'll now go drink some H2O and go to sleep. yes, i am a new century pig. NCP. and i am going to stop now.


later

To Hell We Ride

tomorrow is a new school day and i'm a bit apprehensive. you know...just like the first day of secondary school (i don't remember my first day of primary school. all i remembered was sitting down in the wrong arrangement and arthur was the first person i met in the school when he said, "Oi!! yiou have to sit behind!!!".)


anyway. i met nic on wednesday and though she was very obviously tired (training in the morning till late 2++), she (in my opinion, of course) was quite insensitive. she said some very insensitive remarks which made me feel quite upset about. we met up for early dinner in sakae sushi in the airport as she has to work later. it was a buffet so it was relatively cheaper. after we ate about 9 plates each, i said to her that i was quite full and i might be able to eat more. she said " wanqi, next time if you're not going to eat in a buffet don't ask me to come with you okay?". AS IF I JUST WANTED TO EAT!!! why would i stuff my myself till my food filled all my oesophagus? i just wanted to spend some time with my bestfriend before the year passes and also to give her the christmas gift. she said it a few times before i tried to explain to her that her saying these would hurt me (i was trying to find words to say without sounding like a drama queen). at last i said," nic, i didn't just come here to eat okay? i just wanted to spend some time with you. i mean when was the last time we met? i think it was at the beginning of the month! we had hardly met up at all!", she reminded me that i went to her house to play ps2 two weeks ago. TWO WEEKS!! i didn't even stay over at her house once in this longest holiday in my lifE!!! i don't know why but she has become so flippant about things that are important to me. guess she's just tired. she's going to nanyang jc tomorrow. she's entering there because she's very good at canoeing. well, good luck to her then. i'll msg her later.


the next day i met up with tiffany. we went orchard. you know what? i think i have pms or something because there was one moment where i was very upset for a moment. i was upset cuz tiffany was browsing through my phone (looking at pictures) and when she saw a picture of herself she automatically deleted without asking me first!!! sigh...saying this make me feel pissed all over again. why was i pissed?


1) she didn't ask me first. i mean who's phone was she holding? who does she think she is?
2) i like the picture cuz it was a candid one where she didn't pose and it held her real smile.
3) she thought it wouldn't make me angry or whatsoever. is she so self-conscience that she can't spare a thought about how i'd feel?


i guess it all boils down to her asking for my permission first. why doesn't the people whom i consider as my close friends care about my feelings at all? okay. this is self-pity. right. i'm grateful for yiyun. she's a person who will go the extra mile for a friend. kind of like me. nad, too. i mean i'm grateful for her too. in my secondary school life, i considered 5 people my (own)really close friends. tiffany, zhi yuan, nic, nad and yiyun (we're not a group of friends). i guess i shouldn't really take these things to heart. i mean, there's always jc to look forward to. and i can always meet up with yiyun or nad.


alright. moving on.


my sisters and i donated some clothes and canned food to sri lanka. really hope these things are helpful.


yesterday, we had a family lunch again. was pretty good. i think the next time my mom cooks again will be next month (reunion dinner).


erm my broher wants to talk to me. will write tomorrow or someday next week.


later.


oh and before i forgot. thanks to yiyun, liting, sook yee, christina and jeanie for inviting me to their steamboat dinner yesterday at the chalet. it was very nice. =)

Master Of Puppets

before i start my entry, i'd like to send my deepest regards to the people who had lost their family member(s) in the tsunami.


i didn't go out with tiffany on sunday. she cancelled our date. i think i'm getting sick. and i'm rethinking about migrating. according to wong poh poh of the NUS, "Geographically, Singapore is very safe.".


my cat is very hungry and bored. she's waiting for me to feed her. so what am i waiting for? i have no idea myself.


i'm going to meet nicole tomorrow for dinner. we are going to eat sushi. hahaha...


my sister is still deep in slumber. my school term is starting and my brother has yet to buy his school books because i'm no longer there to buy it for him. we used to be in the same school (wow....finally i can say the word "used"). actually, we were in the same school throughout our nursary-till-secondary education. now i'm going to take a road that does not include him in my education. that thought is a bit scary. i mean, we had been going to school together for the past 4 years. gees. i'm going to JUNIOR COLLEGE!!!! so damn FAST!!! sigh...


i'm going to log off now. will write more soon.


later.

If I Had A Hammer

...I would smash all those who were high on the spirit of Christmas yesterday at orchard and were spraying those things. Okay...A bit over I know. But still.


well I had fun. It was very very crowded. But very very cool. With the exception of the sprayers. I saw this very cute guy wearing red yesterday. I saw him when we boarded the train towards orchard and then towards tampines (which is later on). he kinda looks familiar. like the sergeant of the NPCC in my school. regardless, he's cute.


today was a fun day. i had the first ever family meal(only mine, except my dad). i asked everyone to bring their boy/girlfriends over so we can open the presents and have lunch together. it was kinda cool. i had more clothes than ever today!!! hahaha...quite happy. am wearing the clothes i received today at this moment. =) i couldn't wait to wear them. haha...i'm going to meet tiffany tomorrow. it looks like she's feeling quite lonely. perhaps i'm just over-sensitive or something. but i think she's in need of some good female company. not that the females she hangs around are not good nuff but i think she's herself when she's with me. plus i have yet to give her her gift. nicole's too. i'll give nicole hers next week. i hope i can at least cheer tiffany up.


i just ate the most delicious durians. so don't come near me or i'll stink you with the smell. HAHAHA. the durians were so soft and so sweet!!!!nice!!!jun xiong bought the durians for my dajie but she shared it with my mom and i.


i also "cleaned" my room this afternoon. the " " is because my er jie cleaned it. so bad of me right? like shaun said yesterday when my er jie cleaned the house yesterday, "you ought to be ashamed of yourself." i'm going to give any excuses. haha..halfway through helping my sis clean my room i even went to watch television. incurigable. is that how you spell it? *shrug*


yesterday i had loads of fun. though there are times when i feel like a third wheel (i'm trying hard to make them feel bad. am i succeeding?haha..), it was fun. very memorable. the pictures in my friendster are of the night. pretty cool. more cool is the guy. haha..


i'm gonna knock off soon so i guess i'll write soon.


later.

Start Something

Christmas eve. can't wait for tomorrow to come. then i'll get to open ALL my presents. including a shirt i bought for myself. oops. gave out my present. anyway. met yiyun just now then we exchanged gifts. i know what she bought me and she knows what i bought her. lame right? haha...not at all. i'm a happy girl. i know she'll love what i got for her. or at least i think. right. what did i wanna say just now ah? i forgot. okay then. moving on. i'm going to orchard later with my sis and her boyfriend (aka shaun). don't think i'll be the third wheel. after all we're all like friends. my bestfriend and her boyfriend. okay.


idiot shaun. have nothing to do so barged into my mother's room where the com is and tried to see what i'm typing. too bad. HAHAHAHAHA.


will write more. next time.


merry christmas to all.


later.

Another morning

it's not another morning. it's another evening. anyway.


i met nad for a QUICK lunch. like REAL quick. 20 min tops. then i went bugis alone again. this is like the third day in the row. bought jun xiong something. after that i went city hall to search for mugs for shaun since i can't find any nice ones in bugis. couldn't find anything nice or cheaper ones. so i headed back to bugis to meet my sis, who came from orchard. bought a shirt for mami. i'm still thinking of what to buy. more i mean. for my dear mum. somehow a shirt is just too little. need more.


we went to tampines mall. SO MANY PEOPLE!!! *sigh*....


found something for shaun.


couldn't find anything for mami. came back home.


am using the computer.


feel like changing the skin but am VERY lazy. especially since i always seem to personalise it wasting a lot of time.


should i buy something for my brother's girlfriend? my sis said a flat out no while i'm still thinking about it. i think she's very irratating. not that she likes me much. my brother calls me turkey. go figure. it started out as turkey thighs. so yea. my thighs ARE big. i guess. should i feel hurt? no. cuz if i feel hurt everytime he makes fun of me then where is my sense of humour? okay. maybe i'll buy her something REALLY cheap. i don't know what. have not much money left. do you know my brother calls me turkey in front of her? gosh. i'm very tempted to call him coolie from now on but i just feel so0 bad. prefer calling him cang xi. or boy. i'm so pathetic.


i feel so irate!! just hearing her voice. ugh...


oh i have yet to tell the world that i'm hooked on this game called kingdom hearts!! or did i tell already? i don't remember. anyway. for the whole of last week and half of this week, i've been playing non-stop. often sleeping around 5/6. one time at 7. but it was all paid off. i've reacjhed the last world. am very scared to continue cuz i think i'll die. now i think the addictive feeling has worn-off or perhaps now that i have better things to do, i don't get that "i feel like playing again for 9 hours straight" feeling again. but what i AM feeling NOW is that my stomach is growling. if i'm in a quiet place i think i can hear it loud and clear.


i need a massage.


oh i forgot to mention that went to the library just before meeting nad to pick up some books. i was supposed to meet her near the library actually. but she took a wrong bus (she's quite directionally-challenged. haha...sori nad..just joking) and ended up near century square. then she walked the wrong way or should i say direction, and ended up walking round tampines mall. i managed to reach long johns minutes earlier than her. then we had to queue. i almost rejected all the food that had gone in when i drank their so-called green tea. it was a mix of lemon tea and green tea. TOTALLY DISGUSTING. eww. i wasted half of my food cuz the drink made me lose all my hunger. i think i wasted around $1.90 of the $3.90. not to mention the change of drinks. yuck. i think i dislike long johns. do you know that there's actually small cups of drinks? but when they ask they only ask medium or large. they cheat innocent and guileless people like me into thinking there's only two choices. damn. i know that's a business strategy but that's not honest. it's cheating. things peple do to get money out of consumers. i hope they die horrendously. like a mob killing or something. do you know that when there's a mob killing, they do it with a signature by cutting off the head and the hands? pretty cool, huh? well at least to me, it is. i learnt it today when i read CSI: MIAMI. i just love this kinda stories. for now. at least i had moved on from trashy romances. i'll only read books from julia quinn. her romances are not trashy.


i think next time i'll get tired of reading trashy detective/forensic stories and move on to books with a deeper meaning. i think it'll be those authors who had won some literature award or something. but till then. i borrowed a book about phi and pi. my sis found it. does that sound impressive? i mean, i saw this guy who had obviously read the dan brown book the da vinchi code ( who haven't?) and was explaining to 3 of his other friends from this book obviously inspired by that book about what the golden ratio aka phi was about. his friends were hanging to his every word. i mean, if i explained the golden ratio to someone, will that make me look impressive? i don't know what my point is. perhaps i'm just jealous of that guy who was enjoying that moment of glory. gees.


anyway.


my mom is back and i have to go and eat dinner. so...


later

We still kill the old way

went out alone to shop today. realized that nobody can stomach a gift without the word 'free' in front of it. bought a lot of presents. spent LOADS of $$$. was very tempted to buy myself something. like CLOTHES. but yea. until i get my $150 eagles award $$$ i'm broke. so y buy presents? my siblings are apparently boycotting the tradition this year. so why waste my time? BECAUSE IT'S A TRADITION!!! that's why. also can't wait to see their faces when they open up my gifts for them. sour face or not. i think it should all be worth it.


well.


i hope to wake up abit earlier later and get things done. nowadays i sleep round 5 and wake up round 3. yes i am a pig. and a night owl. still. wish to take a picture or something so i can show off my not-so-newly painted black nails. yes i AM A WANNA-BE. i like the colour black. so just shoot me. it's becoming very common i guess. for a girl to sport black clothings and everything. but i'm sure it will all wear off in a few months. wanna bet? after a few months i will be asking myself wat the heck i was thinking being such a commoner. but yea. till then.


i'm going to mjc. maybe miracle will happen and i get like 8 for my 'O' levels (NOT GOING TO HAPPEN). like i said it's a miracle if it does. but i don't think God will let me have that mark. i didn't even take it seriously till the exam itself. i think a punishment is in order so now i feel apprehensive. for my resluts and also fopr the first day of school. hope i can still fit into my school uniform (*cross fingers*). yiyun says she's not worried i'll be alone cause she says i alwways make friends easily. thanks babe but i seriously doubt it.


my mom is having a headache. wants to sleep. okay.


later.

Results

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i just deleted what i wanted to say AGAIN.


fine.


i got into MJC.

Faint

yesterday i went out with yizhen. she's SO pretty. she told me a lot of things 'bout her boyfriend and i think he's rubbish. i finally come to a conclusion 'bout being in a relationship. when ur attached, u wanna be single. when ur single, u yearn to be with someone. of course things are not as easy as what i just sai but, yeah, this is my "theory". but i dnt think it's mine. oh whatever.


i'm going to meet yiyun in er 15min. still at home. haha.....


okay then.


bye.

One Day Remains

i'm going to the library to spend my time. ciao.

It's Been Awhile

i cut my hair on saturday. i think it is erm okay?i dunno...


not much happened these few days. tomorrow i'm going to meet tiffany for lunch. sort of la.


i've been thinking. i want a name that's easy for everyone to pronounce. i mean i love my name and all. it's just that...if you pronounce my name, it'll come off with a bit of difficulty, right? especially the 'qi' part. so...what do you guys think of 'anne'? i seriously don't know what will suit me but this is all i can think of.


oh!! i won my sister in chinese chess today!!! haha...


no la...i think she was not as focus while playing the game. plus she kept giving me chances. i love you er jie!!! though i'll appreciate it if you'll stop 'molesting' me..haha..


as christmas draws nearer, the feeling of getting away from this country gets stronger. Taiwan or China or Malaysia or ANYWHERE. i don't care. just as long as i'm away from this country. i don't know. perhaps it's because everyone i see is pairing off and i just can't help but FANTASISE. it's getting VERY irritating 'cuz i can't help it. my gaze will be automatically drawn to some cute guy and that just really irritates me cuz i know he will NEVER notice me. so yeah. it's giving me depression. it's not THAT bad la...


so...the com is very slow.


later.......

Saints and sailors

some guy asked wher i lived..in friendster i mean..


WHO would do that? i mean he doesn't even know me well.


so....i went to the library today. quite bored.


went to meet jun xiong, da jie's boyfriend, to pass him da jie's passport and car keys.


he's like an older brother. cool.


went to eat dinner with my mom. she feels the grays catching up on her.


my sister is in a bad mood. 'bout lots of things. $$$, diff treatment from mom (i don't think so..i mean de diff treatment. we are after all her children),....basically these two i think..


i want to cut my hair. trim i mean. but to trim is to cut right? so what's the diff? nothing. i'm just being lame.


i'm going to meet up with yi zhen next week. cool.

Daysleeper

TAUFIK WON!!!!!!!


though i don't listen to the songs that he'd probably sing on his album, i think i'd still buy his album just to support him. after all i did want him to win...he's not bad you know..haha..


he's so CUTE!!!!


ok...nuff of s'pore idol...


i'm alone at home. too lazy to find a job. too lazy to find someone to go out with. too lazy to go to the library. simply, i'm too damn fucking lazy.


tried playing my brother's ps2 but somhow can't seem to work the bloody machine. also, i can't seem to find all his other games..like ff9 and chrono cross. i only found the disk 2 of both games. i feel like screaming. like that eminem song?


ok..whatever.

Just like heaven

here are the pictures... =D

...And she told me to go

i'm now at the library waiting for my sister to finish piano. just now i was at my sister's friend's house, marvin, waiting for to finish recording her songs. not that i minded of course.


yesterday i said that i had a job today? turned out that i didn't have to go at all. i was already at the building when i called, and the person in-charge said that i didn't have to turn up after all. said that she tried to call nicole but nic didn't answer. said she also messaged her. i think she called the wrong number or what cuz nic didn't receive anything. i mean...nic would tell me. i feel so bad now. as soon as i hanged up i called nic and accused her of not telling me anything. nic didn't even know what i was talking about.


so...actually just now at marvin's house, i was using my sis' com to surf the net and was going for an entry when the com shut down due to low batt. her com had all the pictures....nevermind..haha..next time then...ok..seems like my sis is done.


have to go now.


later..

Times like these

guess what? i got a job tomorrow!! ha!! but it's actually nicole. she can't make it so i'm going to sub for her. hope it'll go well *cross fingers*..


can't wait for everything to fast forward. hate this period. this year and last two years. it's the SAME. same suffocating feeling. same lonliness. same feeling of NO LIFE. i'm so pathetic. i think thats why i got together with that guy. i was desperate. well. maybe we'll go taiwan at the last minute. haha...like that'll ever happen.


get me a life man...........


just realised that i much prefer school life. at least in that life i had a purpose and at least i could save money. and spend half of my day without realising how time had passed.


please God!!!!!!!!


let me enter mjc....


hey i just realised (again) that i met that guy 2(!!) years ago!! how time passes. wonder who'll i meet. who God have waiting for me. perhaps it's time for me to gather up ALL my courage and ask some unknown guy out. not.


....


going library now. to do what? i don't know. occupy my time.


later.........

Push

i'm so tired.

Only One

i heard about yuvan's father today. i was really surprised when i heard the news. though i didn't go with the bunch to visit yuvan today, i think i'll go next week with nad and may.


things that happened today seemed so trivial compared to that. i wonder how is yuvan feeling. I hope i don't go through what he is going through now so soon.


today i dedicate this entry to yuvan and his father.


i'm really very sorry yuvan.

Life Of A Salesman

*sigh*


i'm doing the admission thing now and the more i look at the schools the more depressed i get. I guess it's my own fault now and i got to live with it.


"God, give me strength to accept those that i cannot change."


i took that line from the dan brown book angels and demons.


i don't think i'm ever going to get a job at my mother's place. i suppose i could always look at the newspaper. but i guess i'm not independent enough.


all the problems....


sigh.......


wish i could go overseas....

IT"S OVER

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it's FINALLY over. haha....


going to watch a movie later.


going to enjoy myself. like i had been for the past few
days. =)


later